can i have my attachment back?
sigh and sigh and moan and groans...
hehe! thats my response and reactions after every announcements,projects meetings, tutors' tauntings and all the "ings"..
aiyoyoyo... looking at Shik's blog,it has reminded of all the What-I-Need-and-Must-DO!
submission of Public Relations report of 1500 words by next week...
submission of Resume and Cover Letter(HRM)...umm,when is that?
soon,soon...
an ongoing,nerve wrecking,brain squeezing module..Entrepreneurship. tell me something about it Yar!
seriously, i do have that male instincts in me..of killing my tutor(name cant be quote here to protect my own interest and to defend my grades) Wahahaha!
i miss the incoming calls,the praises, the shoutings and the complaints of the taxpayers..
i miss the IRAS people too... *sob*
but i so DONT miss the reporting time. 8.30am every morning.siapa boleh tahan?
school starts on 12th November and will be ending....i dont know when. hopefully soon!
*hari raya music background*
WEI! is Aidiladha coming soon?
i was hearing some jingles and promotions from the Bingla advertisement. hehee!!
eh,bimla,gimla or gila?!
hehhee!okok. ya, Eid is coming soon.so not aware lah.
that should be all. ive got loads of researches.and i think there's stagnant progress in my research. hehe!
take care NYPians.
dont blow your nose around and get all of us sick.
and please..refrain from scratching your scalp. aiyeee!!!
hehe! =)
feelings of mine
2:23 PM
if u were given a chance to be back with me..
would u take the chance?
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I would.
=)
feelings of mine
1:18 PM
Om Shanti Om
Im SOOOooooOooOOoo going to watch!
Ahhh!! its like Shah Rukh ppl...my scandal.finally,doing a movie for me.oh my,oh my..
u guys wouldn't want to know what time is it now.
heee.i saw a short trailer at Woodlands MRT platform during the early evening today.
they're like showing "Aaja Nachle"(come and dance with me).
and guess who's acting. its like Madhuri Dixit. im not that fond of her but ok. the trailer looks nice thou. do check it out at YouTube.
the one that i want to present to u guys today is..(sigh!) the movie acted by my lovely 40 plus shah rukh. oh my,oh my..he just looks hot and gorgeous. seriously!
there's a song in that movie called "Deewangi,Deewangi" which features 31 Bollywood actors and actresses. but the main focus is still shah rukh.haizzzz...
i was so going gggoooogoooogaaagaaagaaa looking at him dancing. phew! *all smiles*
i SSOOOOO want to watch.maybe at the cinema,it would be nice.
the music background is the theme song of the movie. the synopsis is kinda of confusing but basically, the outline of the story is about reincarnation. i've almost hear to all the songs. the nice ones are "Deewangi,Deewangi" and "Main Agar Kahoon". there are some retro and modern concept in this movie. and the songs too do have some elements of the evergreen song.nice..
the direct link to the video watching of Deewangi,Deewangi is this -->
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWioIh_c_DAhappy viewing =))
and keep ur lips stay together.
i wouldnt want any drooolzzz..hehee!
;)
feelings of mine
6:13 PM
in reference to Aiz's blog
umm,if u guys are trying to login to aiz's blog, its not possible as she has changed her blogging address due to some "unavoidable" issues.hhehehe!
somehow rather, its 2.17 am..i know. im just taking over the shift of the "burung hantu"(owl)
hee! will be having some AMP ceremony at Pasir Ris later(which is approx 7 hrs from now) and i've got to be there at 8 or 7 am?i dont know. mum will be waking me up. "kalau tak bangun,mak simbah kau dgn air" which directly means that "if u didnt wake up,im going to splash water at u" alamak! im like giving malay-english course.hehe!
supposed to be going to Sentosa on Sat. but sentosa and me? no link,no link. im not the "sentosa girl" hehe.sorry awak...
was chatting with Aiz on msn earlier on about some emotional issue involving uncertainties in life and etc. i find it interesting and thats why im bringing it to the public attention now.
ATTENTION.is that the word that i mentioned earlier on? ya, and thats what i'm going to debate about. (ceh,debah!)
some of us might not realise but i personally think, attention or obtaining attention is a form of a human need in life. ppl might not be aware due to its intangibility but it sure exist everywhere. be it at ur workplace, school,house,friends or even ur life partners itself.
its even weirder how ppl can go all out to the extent of getting attention. they do have their own means.
i am not siding anyone but im just stating my own point of view. well. i do confess i do need attention. but im rather selective in my choices. i am not the loud or the vocal type in class who would go answering every qns asked by tutor.im obviously not the one trying to bootlick my lecturers and tutors. but i do know of several ppl who did that. but yet,look at where they are now. i wont give names but u know urself. =)
ppl might think that getting attention helps u in life in terms of popularity and favouritism. but no,thats a wrong perception. if ure getting the right attention for something that u
usually do and u dont overdo it and u're being
just urself,i called that a healthy attention.
this matter is not a prominent one in sec and pri schools but its getting much more obvious when u're in JCs and Polys where all ur actions and behaviours are monitored by ppl. im one of the "monitorer". hee! just to share my experience in Year 1 poly...
i do know of someone who's kinda of desperate to get attention until it seems so obvious. answers every lect's qns,laughs aloud to dumb lame jokes, being extra friendly to classmates and even to "act" clever during tutorials. clever? no,bimbo.i used to get all worked up as i feel that my lecturers are spending more time attending to her than concentrating on all of us. i would reach home and bragged about this with my sis. i still remembered what she said.
"just give the person some time.this is the person's peak period. sooner or later,you will realise that all her efforts in attracting attention from lecturers will be all wasted." i didnt take my sister's word seriously but soon enough,it was proven. im not happy or satisfied but rather pitiful. instead of ppl knowing u for being the positives, ppl are talking about all the otherwise.
why am i relating all this as one of my lovely,closest baybeh,Aiz,is rather feeling quite down and uncertains as she is feeling what i used to feel previously.
but after much consoling,i do hope it ease and lighten her thoughts slightly. like what i've told her, the essential things is that u are sincere in everything that u do. and how u achieve that? it is to be just yourself. dont try to act cute when ure not one. example only ah! heee!
(yang pentingnya,nawaitu dan niat kita mesti bersih dan ikhlas.insyallah,kita akan dapat merasa perhatian dari setiap individu) when you're being urself, ure being Natural.and thus u'll feel much more "free" and no restrictions to whatever you want to do.
oh my,am i giving a speech? i dont know.but like fun,like that. heee!
i always assures myself this.. eventhough nobody likes me or eventhough nobody gives me any attention,i m aware that im given much love and attention. from God of course.. insyallah dan alhamdulilah.
take care all! =))
im soo worried about my bulgy tummy. but do u think im bothered? Dont Bother!! heee!
i loveee my readers. pls give me your point of views k! =)
do i need to explain anything about her?
babe,u're not forgotten...
and kental seri! u lagi tak di forgotten. hhehehe!
Labels: attention
feelings of mine
6:17 PM
sooner or later,truth will prevails.
my feelings this moment?
depressed? no,thats too strong. i would say. confused or perhaps, downhearted?
i dont know. but what i certainly know is that im just plainly surprised on how someone that u loved and cared at one day can be just mean and despicable and loathsome the next day..
i do wonder.
how people can pray 5 times a day and go hajj, but lies and "fitnahs" can never be separated from their spoken words
i do wonder.
how people can be so gullible to believe every single words said by others. but never to ask them why such things were said.
i do wonder.
why cant people just let someone live in peace despite after hurting them so much.
i do wonder.
why among all the people that i wouldnt want to meet again,u came upon by chance.again.
but one thing that i wont wonder.
i believe that all things that have happened,happens for a reason. like ive said much much earlier in one of my blog entry, there's always a ray of hope for every problems that we encountered in life.
and i do hope that such rays will come by and shine upon me and my loved ones. insyallah.
ps:my dearest aiz,u've done a great deal for me. i wont forget that. and for the others namely Shikin,Xinyi,Joycelyn and maybe Seri(who dont know anything, hehe!) and of course to the lovely Mazlina,thanks for all ur advices,support and strengths that u've guys have given to me. much appreciate. =)) *seri,will update u the stories. soonnnn..insyallah*
for the time being, im running a campaign of "Free-Hands & Fingers Day" especially for my terrified ears.hehehee!
feelings of mine
1:40 PM
pictures are here.
as promised a few days back..i think weeks (hehe!)
these are the pictures from this year's Eid Mubarak. Happy Viewing. =))
FIRST DAY
the 3 of us. may God grant us all the strength that we ever need and may we be blessed. insyallah. =))
the things we did...from covering our mouths (action cute).....to.....
kissssing of each other. dush! that's Raudha,my lovely cuzzie..
i think brother spoiled the pic by closing his eyes. one of the several nice pics taken. oh wells hehe!
SECOND DAY
pardon for the blurrish effect. it still looks nice,isn't it?
taken at Nenek Long's place at Marsiling.
taken at Uncle Fakir's place. Fajar Rd.
at Nenek Maibee's place at Thomson Rd.
trying "real" hard to get everyone faces IN. inclusive of my cramped face.hehe!
me and one more lovelie cuzzie, Yazmeen.using night mode. i loike!
OPEN HOUSE at RAUDHA'S CRIB
this should be Nasi Ambeng. menu for that day.i know,i know..dahsyat kan...hehe!
cuzzie with Bro with his all time over stressed nose.hehe!
the blurry Hari Raya atmosphere at Uncle Man's place
the left is "handsome boy". the left is handsome boy's brother. names? i dont know.heheh.something like Kiki? adorables. but "handosme boy" is the violent one. but Loves taking pictures. made everyone applaud after every snapshots of his pictures. keke!
me w Aunty Masturah's son, Nabil
the cuzzies from all sides. =))
excuse me cuzz,im still awaiting for the photos. hehe!
got loads of Raya photos. phew!
feelings of mine
4:47 PM
still thinking
ok..what shall i update on my blog today?
thats the whole issue now. haiz.
today is like my "off" day from tuitions. final papers for two of my students. one which is having Science paper today and another one which is sitting for English today. Grrrr.... im scared for them.truly,i am. i really hope they won't disappoint me thou. insyallah.
i was quite pleased and grateful as i've managed to actually get back in contact with someone whom i've lost contact for a very long time. and out of the blue (or green,hehe!), a forward email had actually "re"connect us back. alhamdulilah. i'm happy to know that some people like this are meant to be contacted. ok,whatever am i saying..hehe!
working at IRAS has always been the same but the callers are different. atleast if we dont get a chance to meet the persons that we talked to, we can still get a chance to hear their sexay voices. wahaha! especially the British and the Canadians.u should hear how they pronounce my name. its like "sha"zanah.its like shazanah..in thick pure english accent. *sigh*
talking about my name.
i have a few names thats closely associated with my "actual" name and is specially pick and chosen by my taxpayers.
"can i know who am i speaking to?"
"i'm Shazanah, its S,H,A,Z,A,N(with much emphasis),A,H"
"oh, its shEazanah."
"no,mam.its shAzanah."
"aiyah,nvm lah,still the same"
Huh?still the same? why not from lee,i change it to loa or loo..isnt that the same also.
Grrr..to just name a few,my chosen names are shazaMah, sUzanna, susan and lastly..Shahidah. huh? watever lah. hehe!
its fun working. atleat u know u made someone happy by lessening the amount of tax that they have to pay at the end of the day.hehe!
especially if those ppl who called to ask the tax balance and it happened that they dont owe us anything...Wah! that ppl super happy. hehe!
one day also,i will be the person at the other line of the phone. and i hope i have nice officers to attend to me..like i used to be too..ceh.
if uve seen my 1st sentence,ive said.i dont know what to write for today's entry. but i did.
happy reading peepZ! =))
feelings of mine
1:11 PM
