Love of mine

Kesabaran ku Diuji

2009-10-14T14:11:00.004+08:00

i dont wish to think alot for this entry.
but sometimes or most of the time, it does gets to my nerves.
does my question on payment and $$ affects you and make u more tension?
u dont have to accuse by contemplating about the future.
i was just merely asking whether u are able to pay this transaction since I've made my payment the other time. and u got tensed and had a slight blow there. Duhh. whats the issue here?
u mean i cant discuss on "sensitive" issues like money with you?
and instead of doing something which will reduce the tension, u just went on blabbering about this, that, blah blah.

it pains. it pains my ear. irritating.. grrrrrr... -__-

of course, we kept silent about it. cause if I have said something, it will got harsher and matters will get more 'entangling' here and there.
i may be silent but dont get me started.
cause my words may slice your ego, and that will not be nice.

Picnic of the Year =)

2009-06-01T12:55:00.015+08:00

As I was browsing through my folder named ' Shazanah', it just brought me to all smiles and small giggles with the photos in it...
If you all were there..I'm sure you will hear our 'imaginary' voices in each of the captured moments below.. like whatever lah u know.. hee!
i think these pics below belum lagi di'posted'..
Basically, its just alll FUN! the sun shown and the rain came. perfect weather i would say. was my 1st time going to Botanics so, ya lah..
we were like having mini picnic out in the open,playing Monopoly (of all places!)
hehhe! but very the gerekkks.. I cant remember any "silence observation" being with them. ookokok, i know.

mind you.. its the "lunch" for 4 of us..
(ishk,ish,ish)
want to know why i placed these 2 photos beside one another?
the shape of that ririririri's hand with the foods.. hmm..
mcm ku kenal persamaan itu. keke!

the pretty lady, like duhh!

mcm nak step ang moh story lah tuu..heee!

To summarise it all! (zanah, ur GIGI!) and seri, ur pouted, tak-menjadi mouth.
eugh!heheeh!

The randomness - Sanctuary House

2009-04-08T18:03:00.004+08:00

I was reading an online news at asia1.com.sg when i chanced upon this article about "Boys must learn to say No too"
something on pre-marital sexual relationship of teenagers and on unplanned pregnancies.
a topic which is related to something that I love.

babies.

and it do provide some details on where going-to-be mothers (unwed mothers) can seek help.
www.sanctuaryhouse.com.sg

thats a non-profit organization which aims to extend their assistance specifically to females who are confused on their pregnancy, providing advises on how to handle such situations and etc.

i think this a great charity which should be made known to everyone eventhough such a topic on pre-marital sex can be considered a taboo to some.

and i want to be part of them.

of course not as the 'confusers' but the volunterers :)

the peakin-freakin period is here.

2009-03-17T12:28:00.005+08:00

kindly do your filing before the golden date of 15 Apr 09 to avoid receiving computer-generated pinkish letters stating our love to remind you out of your busy schedule. and if its still not convincing for you, we have improvised the invitation to with a 'shopping' voucher. with fixed amount and only one place to spend on. with no products exchanged.

so, do refer to the relevant website :)

Hehe. sometimes, reversing the physcology or turning the physco around works.
on certain people and unexpected timings, of course ;)
I did that but somehow, works rarely. cause it always come in handy with my frustration.
"like sha, get to the point can?"
hehehe! *murmurs*

my kentals' blogging getting more kental-ish. nothing to be exact.
u can write anything u want..like.
shazanah is pretty (i know) but u can provide details
shazanah is helpful and caring (i dont really know) but u can provide examples
shazanah is outstanding and attractive (wow, i will love u for that) no buts, no regrets baybehh.. ;)

and etc. like hows work? hows school? hows family?
anything exciting u saw outside? anything outstanding (apart from me *grins*)

im quite..
worried and scared.
momma's health is still the same. fever on and off.
and doctor did not diagnosed her with any serious illness.
then what eh? i think too much flames internally. maybe some alien tgh ada campfire kat dalam.
ok, joke. anyway, thats how i look at complex things. i tend to blame it on "abnormal" circumstances. so, no immediate parties is affected. only the aliens :)
but i think momma needs lotsa love and encouragement as well as moral support. her system like totally gone down wreckage. now in recuperating mode, insyallah.

and i spent $10 plus just for lunch. teow!
$4.40 for a paperfull of pictures and words (magazine)
$3.50 for rice with veg with sotong with asam pedas grazy (that makcik always charge the same price) zzzzzzzzzz......
$1.20 for ice lemon tea.. 9 i can easily do that with a lipton sachet, sugar and lemon at $0.50.
$1.70 for usual breakfast of tea, curry puff and jemput-jemput (very the nice) at level 5.

phew. and not forgetting Baulu from Prima Deli. kalau cecah dengan air teh, sedap mannn. hehehe

and of course the usual lunch buddy that im with. it all adds up to = total enjoyed sha!
and i felt blessed. may allah blessed those around me as well, amin.

and its Lin's BIRTHDAY!! yeayy!! like on 12 th Mar. -_- sorry dear, hope not toooo late for me to wish u thou.. that will come next!

sometimes we overlook the little details in life till it shows us the bigger significance. looking at the those's with a different view. - quoted by Shazanah Rahman. (smile) who says i dont do quotations. heheeh!

2009-02-20T09:37:00.002+08:00

should i say that its exactly one month after my previous entry?
i think this is like umm, my monthly updates lorr. haha!

ok. let me tell something. this happened in the morning busy,hectic, smelly, zombie looking train that we took everyday.
and so. i was standing exactly near facing the door.
i think if the door opened suddenly, i would be getting an immediate exit straight down..dush! and so, thats not the main point. u know, i can merry the round and the go the merry but never straight to mary. (what sha?!)
anyways!
"next stop, khatib"
then this ugly-looking, tall, dirty-fingernailed with black,black spots, scruffy hair (like never bathe for days) china man boarding the train. despite me standing there, i really dont know how he managed to squeeze through lah eh.
then, he was standing beside me. somehow rather, he was bringing a big sling bag. and i think he wanted to move behind.
but he, being ugly-looking with dirty brain decided to put his bag behind him such that after a few tsk,tsk,tsk.
I was infront of him.
important rule, ladies. u either place ur handbag near ur chest area. or u fold ur arms so that some people dont take advantage of you unnecessary. sometimes, u might not know what goes thru and in their minds especially in the morning. nonsense. think what? in a club ah?

maybe this is my own thinking but i swear i dont feel comfortable. seriously.
i know the train is quite bumpy but somehow, he was standing very close behind me. and hello, i was like wearing my long dress. is that seductive to you? basket.
and so, i held my handbag by my arms and tried to push him behind by pushing my bag to the back. but i felt like he was budging. as if he was trying to push my bag away and stand even closer and uncomfortably i had to stand very close to a nurse leaning against the glass pane.
i wanted to like turn around and stared at him, put my arms in such a way that my elbow is potruding behind or just turned and say "can you like kindly move behind" idiot!
but i did not. i got uncomfortable,really. that im just thinking of how to make him move behind further more. and all this happened along khatib to yck.

eeeee.. i got yucky thinking about it. if he's some good looking office smelling good guy, i dont mind (eh, but anyways, these people dont do such things in the train)
but this worker looking china guy got the face to do.
baskettttt! eeeee..
thats why ladies, be careful. usually, this dying old looking man and those foreign workers tend to commit such things. im not trying to be subjective or judgmental about these group. but this is what i usually notice.

something nice today. its friday.

and i had a sweet companion in the train! :)

2009-01-20T13:03:00.003+08:00

i hate having this kind of feeling.
someone scolding you, something irritates you and someone who's being judgmental towards you.
somehow, im having that feelings and i dont like it. ok,fine.
get over and done. im tired.

not much to say here.. its like kind of monotonous.
but im still happy and grateful with all the pleasures life has to offer which some people might not have. alhamdulilah.

sister getting married. at last. haha!
eh, im happy for her. tapi.. i think im going to miss her.. hehe
but atleast i can 'invade' her room. wahahahaah!
went S'pore Expo with mum,her,abg ader..
there was this wedding exhibition..coooooool. its like the season to get married.
i pun nak kahwin..heheheh (sheepish smile :))

arab music updates.
i just downloaded one song from this Lebanon singer, Elissa...
niceeeee..

Bastanak (I'm waiting for you)
ya, shah rukh..weeeeee ;))

Khuda Hafiz

Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi

2008-12-18T18:42:00.003+08:00

WWEEeeeEeeEEE!!
I sooooo want to watch..

"Left,Left Ake Ake
Right Leg Pichey Pichey
Ajaya Let start ve"
lalalalallallalala...

Dance Pe Chance, oh soniya.. lalalal! :)

now, tell me.
how can i stop loving shah rukh khan.
*twwinkle eyes*

Khuda Hafiz

mbeekk,mbeeekkk...

2008-12-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

Qurban time!

Hari Raya day!! YAY!!!!
(tapi mcm "semangat raya" kekurangan)
should be more merrier than yang puasa nya, actually.

anyways..
thats the day that me and my sis 'insaf' (repent)
for 1 day only.hehee!

We were wearing....

ABBAYA!

commonly worn by the Middle Eastern, Arab ladies..
pweeeeetyyyy kan?
i mean = ME! heeheeh!

thats my niece, Ira..
KEntalsss... remember? hee -__-
our 2nd "PR" kid.dush!

she insisted to be in every photo..
but not looking at the source. duh.

If I'm ready to have my head covered (for the benefits of Non-Muslims, its wajib or obligatory for Muslim women to have her head and body covered from the sights of outsiders and which dont include the palms and the face)

Insyallah.

Khuda Hafiz.

when the girl turns 2 with a zero

2008-11-12T10:16:00.008+08:00

pls dont be bothered by my previous post.
just an avenue to vent out. haha! =)

anyways!
it was. i mean it is my colleague's
its her birthday, yeah.its her birthday, yeah.yeah.
not happy for her,but glad for myself.
well, atleast we are on the same boat eh Hazimah.
kidding dear. hehe!

May you be blessed with all the happy things and a pinch of not so good one.
like our "favorite" colleague "SHIOK SENDIRI" attitude of hers..
i think thats an overdose of the not-so-good things in life that not only you butttt, 9 of us have to suffer.
hahaha!

Semoga dipanjangkan usia
Dimurahkan rezeki
Diberkati tuhan selalu,
insyallah.. Amin. :)

and its our Makan session for 35 of us at Rice Table at 11am later.
yippppeeee!!

last and not the least, i know im pretty, everyone is pretty.but.
not you. oh...puhhhhleeeasssssseee. (eyes rolllliiingggg)
u do have that 39cm radius skin there.tsk,tsk,tsk.

Khuda Hafiz

some office person

2008-11-05T11:57:00.003+08:00

If you like people who are serious at work, how come ure not?
and anyway, if you are serious at work, i dont see why..
1) you are issuing letter querying for their income like after the date of death (duhhh) is that classified as dumb or blind?

2) you put every work of urs hanging,pending and unattended.
its like ure asking someone to clear that piece of shit of yours. even the dogs are trained to do their own clearings properly.

3) you expect people to tell u the entire story from A to Z when actually u are handling that case and you are the one who is asking the customer to give you the documents

oh yes, i forgot.. u like to clear your shitty work down accepting it as you have 'dealt with'.

Total Dumbness.

i dont like nagging.
but now, i love bitching.
u triggered that.

thanks dear ;)

Nancy Ajram Updates

2008-10-30T10:10:00.007+08:00

The Making of Mien Dal Elli Nesyik - Who Forgot You?

She's pretty right? (sigh)

video out next year! yipppeeee :))

Eid Mubarak-Festival of giving, sharing and taking :)

2008-10-29T12:09:00.003+08:00

ramadan dah habis,
raya dah nak dekat habis,
baru nak update.
hehe.

Biasalah beb! =)

pics will do the talking, screaming, shouting, laughing, joking and everything else :)

the above 2 random photos were taken right after i woke up.
feeling raya.. the soothing clouds and the new pinky bedsheets. pweeetyyy..

cuzzie Raudha

we and Nenek Long(i dont even know her full name) =X
Dadaji's eldest sister at Marsiling. (and my good,filial looking cousin's grandma as well) *winks*

who says we siblings dont look alike? grrrrr..

This Kakak there made goood chhoooocooolaaateee cookies. name?
peta nahi. (dont know) hee.

mum's reaction enhances the picture. -__-

we proceed to Nenek 'short' house. no lah.
its Nenek Maibee at some Lian Court? location = unknown. hee.

Kak Raudha's 56th attempts of trying to look nice and Kak Nana's never-attempting attempt to 'stone' Hehehehe!

The Mothers.

the Geylang road. like after a murder scene. hehe!

"Nashiir, senyum" "Taknak lahhhhhh" (Nashiir, smile) (Dont Want lahhhh) :)
After much persistence u know.

Cik Banu's place (real name = Bulan)
Location at Yishun, Chong Pang
Level 4 and no lift..
*panting*

At Home

Happy Kesungguhan :D

im trying to squeezeeee thru.. oh my.

The Time for Forgiveness
(like at 12.35am??)

and....

thats only for first day, ONLY!
Hehe. but i enjoy sharing-maring and uploading my photos here for kepos like you and also..
me! hehe.

Khuda Hafiz

What are you thinking?

2008-09-23T09:17:00.004+08:00

the already-released of Nancy Ajram's new album, Betfakar Fi Eih

i just get sooooo updated with her latest happenings. there's a certain aura and value attached to her that made me her singaporean fan. =) utmost thanks to bestie who introduced me to her. hehe! ;)
i think this album portays her image stronger and better than her previous children album.
i wanna get the original CD! anybody know of the way to import the CD here? 0_0

to name the few titles.
Lamset Eid - Touch of your Hand
Leya Hak - My rights
Safer (Ana Rohy Ma'ak) - Travel, my heart will be with you.

will be uploading one video with translations ;)

below, her latest pictures.

i want to have eyes like her.. grrrr... -_-

Khuda Hafiz

doors closinggg...

2008-09-10T09:50:00.005+08:00

topic today: Train
specify: Packed train -_-

which im sure everyone has experienced the 'normal,usual and accepted' way of travelling life in s'pore. and which i want to blog about it now as it has gave me a sense of "motivation" due to the frustration i faced every morning to work.

the train dwellers (i refer to as passengers) are the first and foremost strangers that i met.. even before meeting my own colleagues and of course, im not complaining nor
am i asking for a change of environment.

but lets be C_________..
courteous.
compassionate.
considerate.

it just pissed seeing dwellers reading newspapers in such a sardine-vacuumed packed train. well, i know u are concerned on the latest happenings around the world..but if u just can't be well bothered on your surroundings, i would suggest a well deserved place for you.
On the train.

im sure all of us have undergone carbon-smelling experience with newspapers opened widely. its ok if u had fold the paper but no!
this particular smart-wearing but not so smart thinking opened her Straits Times widely infront of her face much to the extent of blocking the holding pole.
pedulikan apa.

i just cut across my arm to hold the pole. paying $1.44 gave me equal rights so dont tsk, tsk at me. grrrr! just because you're not allowed to read newspaper in office..can't u atleast read it before going to the office. or u just dont have time? then wake up early to get that morning dosage of carbonated paper of yours.
cocoon morons. hehe!
thats a funny term.

by the way, goooody the Morning everyone!
visit www.asia1.com.sg for online news!
i believed that site is even better..

Khuda Hafiz

ambi pur

2008-09-09T09:20:00.006+08:00

i just sprayed Lavender Breeze below my feet.itchy. PIAK!

hey peooooppllleee.... im back.
what do you mean im back? im here......
heee.. July, August and September. foooyooo! quite some time, some time.
and lotssssssss of updates. and of course, the never ending picturesss..weee!!
*mcm promoting blog kita pula yeeee*

it was my organisation's 60th anniversary of existence on...wait ah. let me take a look at the Announcement Page.
......
....
..
1st Sep lahhh..
but the bessstt part if of course this =)

pemurah sungguh company aku yee..

really!! this cute, much hopeful gadget was distributed to all staff. even newcomers like Ritz.
its just the right time when i need one. both of my listening devices are gifts. :)
Welcommme RITZ!!
superr lucky. just her first day and she got that "welcome gift" along with a super thick book that illustrate how my company has grown..aww.. super proud staff! 0_o
the next few pictures is the sexy me and the not-so-sexy colleagues..hehe!

mind you... we were in the 'ladies toilet'... heee. one of them is my Asst Mgr and another is my Mgr. tsk,tsk. ;)
the newly renovated level 24 where the top mgmt sits... and it was like photo taking session.part of SEB branch. =)

imagine... 1549 staffs getting the same black device?? foooyooo!!
the anxious, superrr excited faces of my colleague tearing away the wrapper.
i guess, christmas came abit too early here.
Thank You, whoever you are =)

i just browsed thru shikin's blog and im soooo envy... bnyk nya updates u makcik!!
hmpf! i bertekad akan bekerja keras.. untuk meng'update'kan blog i ini..hehehehe!

back to pics!

one of my favvooouurriiiteee colleague, LinLin ;)

after much insistence... we have LinLin alone. hehehe!

me and Kak Fitri, sister's classmate (coincidence, maybe)

me and fadila. =)

me and zeenath ;)

shiok habis baybehss..

again, part of the SEB people. half from the assessment and another from the service group.
and today, i mean that day, tak lain tak bukan...its NATIONAL DAY 2008! after 3rd attempts of picture taking.. susah sngt ke??

i was selected to attend the National Day Observance Ceremony. I think working in a govt sector, this type of celebration is strongly encouraged to cultivate a sense of belonging and they are more proactive in organizing such bonding events among staff. i truly appreciate (cause no duty for 2 hrs) weeeeee...

and presenting to you....the satisfied, happy, contented looking staff.
behind is my beauuutiiiifuulll well decorated workstation. i know, its VERY well-organised.
no comments. hehe!

i shan't stop only here. next entry....

Shik's Bdae Celeb @ Rumah Kaca.
proudly brought to you by the Kentals! :)

khuda hafiz

2008-07-25T09:09:00.002+08:00

my workload are piling
and i can assure you on that.

AHHH!!! gggrrr..no frequent blogging
no frequent surfing..
no frequent dazing
ooooff!

to those who have just gotten a job, all the best working and slogging your way through.
haha! that dont sounds too bad right?

2008-07-19T19:10:00.003+08:00

what can i say? I AM CUTE!!
u guys have to be like AGREEING with the above right?haha!
"quiet unless excited or tensed" any words from the kentals and the rest on that particular statement? hehehehe. O_o
i am quiet ok..

trying..maybe in my workplace.haha!

khuda hafiz

for viewing purposes. =)

2008-07-17T11:45:00.003+08:00

random pictures using sister's W(number-not-that-sure) series Sony Ericsson phone. but i know its like superr slim lah.
pressing button number 5 might result in 257. hahaha.

thus..that should be NOT all.
hehee..
lunchinggg time..
later got counter! yay!

Khuda Hafiz

assessment status, check!

2008-07-15T08:54:00.006+08:00

the title is verryyyyyyyyyyyy random.
perhaps thats what the 1st caller in the morning enquired. oh wells.

we do have this 'internal msn' thingy where we can chat among ourselves,colleagues only. and so, this is what my lovely colleague told some lovely stuff abt me.

CHEW LIN LIN/I... yaaa so cuteee, ya 12pm
CHEW LIN LIN/I... :)
CHEW LIN LIN/I... n i think u hv gd complexion :)
CHEW LIN LIN/... skin v gd hah

edited (02:43pm)

CHEW LIN LIN/... n i think i can say ur character is super bubbly
CHEW LIN LIN/... :)
CHEW LIN LIN/... always so cheerful

oh my! dia macam paham aja.
anyway, i even copy+paste the conversation... hahaha.

so sha, whats the motive,point, link, dividers, traffic...ok stop!
hehe. absolutely no link. but she sure makes my day by making me feeling terrific.
Thank You Chew Lin Lin.

woi kentals! when to meet seh???

and of course! a Very GOOOD MOOrrrning to u all!!

khuda hafiz

i begin my day

2008-07-14T09:35:00.005+08:00

yeah, and i think all u people should be doing the same thing tooooo..

1,
2,
3.... SMILE (",)

0_o <--- i think that is a cute emoticon. that shall be my signatory then.. hehe!

i begin my Mon,14 July day with a smile greeting the "residents" at my workspace a VERY GOOODYY MORNING!
to my tai lung and po on my CPU, good morning and no fighting. =)
to my cow stuck on my CPU, good morning and go on mooing,(if u can)hee!
to my flowers in the striking pink $0.95 vase, good morning and start bloooming.
to my calculator on my left side, good morning and start counting.
to my pop-eyed fish that i bought at Underwater world, good morning and start popping.
to my $9 ikea stylo-mylo looking clock, good morning and start ticking and finalllly...

to my be-loved stagnant-smiling looking faces (and they are obviously looking at me, even now!) a verry goood morning.

to my lovable 3 kentals on my left behind my calculator, good morning and im not late today ok. eventhough i rushed like crazy thinking that i have to come at 8am just now. keke.

to my lovable siblings, good morning and im sure sista is clearing her desk since wed was her last day and to my tall 1.8m bro, maybe he's having his geog class now?

to my student, Maz and one more kental makcik nenek who are all in the mid air on the skyride, goood morning and start moving and stop staring at me.. hehe.
and of course to my Mummy, who's smiling widely during her departure to Mecca, a very good morning and selamat pagiiii.. and...

to my "i-dont-know who" who is standing proudly on my left with a frame specially bought at ikea too and ure just right behind my kentals face... the person who shook my hand during my graduation, i think u might be at your office or attending some bigshots seminars out there..whatever it is, wishin u a goood morning and thanks for the nerve-breaking moments of 3 mins on the stage and smiling like as if i am the only one shaking hands with u. im like the 154th graduands?

i hope i dont left any of my loved ones behind except for my two cousins which i know one K.E.P.O is reading and another with no access to comp is not reading, wishing you two a very good morning. yesterday's outing to airport and the crap laughter of 'breeze' shall never be forgotten. love u all. and take care. all the way, GP teacher. yeeehaaaa!!!

and that shall be all. my wishes, greetings and may today like any other day and the tomorrow just like today, runs smoothly as ever. alhamdulilah.

khuda hafiz.

"stubbley" spotted

2008-07-08T10:35:00.003+08:00

had counter duty in the morning yesterday.
and he was some khaled-with-a-long-name.
persian.

sigh. its just the eye-captivating eyes.
and he enquired about....
parenthood rebate.
...
..
.
p.a.r.e.n.t?

married lar dey...
haiz.

khuda hafiz

stubble,stubble... i looveeee...

2008-07-03T09:41:00.008+08:00

you girls will know.. check this out! proven,testified and it sooooo realll and meeee.. =))

Chuck out razors - Women love stubble
Mon, Jun 30, 2008 The Straits Times

LONDON - STUBBLE is the way to win a woman's heart, a study has shown.

Researchers found that women are more attracted to men with stubbly chins than those with clean-shaven faces or full beards, the London Telegraph reported yesterday.

Women participating in the research rated men with stubble as tough, mature, aggressive, dominant and masculine - and as the best romantic partners, either for a fling or a long-term relationship.

The findings of the experiment, carried out on British women aged 18 to 44, could explain the appeal of actors such as George Clooney and Brad Pitt, who cultivate their unshaven look.

The explanation for the preference is not clear, but experts in human evolution say that facial hair may be a signal of aggression because it boosts the apparent size of the lower jaw, emphasising the teeth as weapons.

Psychologists at Northumbria University who carried out the new study believe that stubbly men may offer women the best worlds - not too strongly masculine, but mature and with the potential to grow a full beard.

The researchers carried out the study using computer technology to alter pictures of 15 men's faces so that they displayed different degrees of hairiness - clean-shaven, light stubble, heavy stubble, light beard and full beard.

Faces with full beards were judged to be the most masculine, aggressive and socially mature. They were also thought to look five years older. They were rated the least attractive and the worst choice for a short-term relationship.

Men with light beards were considered the most dominant. Those with light stubble were rated the most attractive and as the ideal romantic partner for the short or long term. Clean-shaven men finished bottom for masculinity, dominance, aggression and social maturity, and they were the least favoured choice as a long-term partner. They came second-to-last for attractiveness.

(ps: but not misai ok!)

Khuda Hafiz

2008-06-29T14:20:00.001+08:00

the rest of the much-not-updated photosss..

Seriously, i think we both look like... SouthPark characters.introducing... chupa aiz and mumpa sha. (amacam nama? ok eh? heee) except that the snow here is like ice. quite fake, i guesss.

this is the part where our "hiding-hiding-camera-snapshots" skills have to be practiced here. every picture took by the photographer there cost like $15?? what the bleahh..

i loovee this shot. thanks aiz. and that shhhhaaaakkkyyy hand of urs :)

and now the mist. dearie olympus had an aftermath shock after the vast difference in the temperature.

umm,well? definition of sex is not only the fusion of the sperms and the egg cells but its also a survival strategy. this is scientific based horrr.(u can clearly see it from that T.U.A's face) hehehe.

the reflection of confusion. where exactly are we?

"i poke u down...poke,poke. u open ur arms...ugly,ugly.. "
hehehehe. snappy dee snap!

actionn takut lah tu.. this is done by the projector infront and the shadow it created by that wooman's fingers.

this is the new exhibit. and those 2 figures are not part of the exhibitions. so, dont bother looking for US! hehee. come on baybeh.. the Egypt style.

some tuthankhamun mummY? but i have great interest in mummy and egypt. beautiful.

"an external virus is spotted on the ball of viruses." pestbusters, kindly fumigate that ball there!! wakakaa.

and people!! we're like at SINGAPORE SCIENCE CENTRE as well as SNOW CITY!!
bring your children, grandsons,granddaughters and all "granders" there ok! very educationingg...

nak taruk battery kappe?? muka maintain yee.. hehe!

khuda hafiz

2008-06-29T12:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAZANAH!!

heheehehe... 29 June 1988 at 5.35 pm.. marks the birth of Princess Temasek.
*dont even try to roll your eyes* ok! atleast im being humble and noble horr. hehehehe. =))
(just ignore the background) at cuzzie raudha's washroom. :)

semoga panjang umur
dimurahkan rezeki dan
diberkati tuhan selalu, Insyallah.

to all the others, thanks for the warm wishes.
god bless. ;)

Khuda Hafiz

2008-06-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

as ive promised to myself, pls do...do keep the same promise that you had abide to.
as im walking away from u, pls do...do walk away from me.
as i dont interfere in your life, pls dont interfere in mine.
once you're a stranger,
once i've known u and twice you're a stranger.

Dear stranger,
im here but i dont wish to acknowledge.
hope ure doing all well there with the grace and love of god.

Khuda Hafiz (Good Bye)

P.Ramlee The Musical

2008-06-13T04:10:00.000+08:00

Azizah - P. Ramlee
this song is P Ramlee's first song to glory and fame. in this song, he's describing to us the appearance of his first love, Azizah when he was in Penang, his birth place. due to restrictions by Azizah's parents and P Ramlee's dreams to be a popular artist, their love story ends there and then. (i personally love the lyrics)

will keep readers updated =) [mentioned on 01 June]

looking at virtual(ers) updating and posting pictures, i think i will be doing the same thing tooo..
hehe!

i know this is like sssssllloooowwwww..
but TAADDAA!! the P Ramlee Musical @ Esplanade. a blast and a bomb with a grenade seh.
so fun. watched it with one of my close fren. and me being the 'jakun' i was stunned for words ogling and admiring the theatre hall. its pretty lah. entering that place makes me feel like im attending some world class, well recognised concerts. super posh..best giler nye. =)

exec producer: tiara jacquelina (she's the main character in Puteri Gunung Ledang)
there were 3 schedules and we chose the show on the final day. and being the last day performing, all the theatre activists gave in their heart and soul to the performance. super semangat ok!

it lasted for abt 2.5 hrs with a 15 min intermission. the entire musical describes P Ramlee's everchanging life evolving around the 4 women that he had loved and love. his first love, Azizah. his 1st wife- Junaidah. divorced. 2nd wife- Norizan. divorced. finally, Saloma.
personally, all the performers in the show are all well talented and passionate even though they only appeared in back drops. hehe. its quite a roller coaster full of emotions and tensions watching the show. you will feel like you're witnessing the real life of P. Ramlee infront of u with the main actor really looking like the late P.Ramlee. for the benefits of those who dont know who is P. Ramlee, he was was a Malaysian film actor, director singer and songwriter. his beautiful pieces has found its way into people's hearts and even now, his black and white directed shows are loved by many,be it the young or the old.

so, he was and is very well known across the region.

the three main characters that i loooveee... =)
Emelda Rosmila as Azizah
Musli Ramli as P Ramlee
Liza Hanim as Saloma (she relive the primadona role) ;)

Emelda is seriously sweet. i was ogling at her all the time for the 3 initial scenes ok. hehe
One of my favorite scene that i adored is the 2nd scene, the Penang song where the performers are dancing and singing with their own costumes and props that actually brought you to Penang in amidst. For those who watched the musical, i'm sure its one of the unforgettable show shown in Esplanade itself.

i love the show. dear fren, pls update me if there's anymore such musical around ok! ;)

the life that leads on

2008-06-10T02:29:00.000+08:00

"stupid, demanding _______. Don't he understand simple English?"
hehehehe. i just witnessed quite an unsightly view of one of my colleagues tolerating, suffering form some sadist incorrigible_______ who just love to irritate good people like us with their bossy ignorant epidemic. chi-kuay (that's weird in mandarin) =P

pity her. quite new, like me too. perhaps the secret is to have the sweet voice like me. hahaha. kidding. but bless myself. i have never encountered such on-the-edge incidence before but do have some outoftheworld enquiries before. funny,funny.

ive not been actively blogging and im pretty aware of that. kind of scary thou. cause somehow rather, im feeling kind of committed to update virtual(ers) about my latest happenings. oh wells, its the princess story.who wouldnt want to know right? kekeke. perasan rambutan sungguh. this is my 2nd week here. and im feeling rather satisfied and also quite bored...
i miss my starhubbers to mention jing xuan, sarala,mira, raudhah and my gorgeous 3 ladies namely Rita, Dorothy and that nenek Li Lin. hehe. happy couriering, ordering, processing, rushing and all the verbs that u can named. hehe. thats how my job scope was previously except that im in an inactive mode. "there goes the girl on the pink stool reading newspaper and falling asleep." hehe.
Pictures?? aloooottt... will upload.
1) Danial's Bdae - i think by the time i upload the pictures, danial will turn 24 soon. hehe.
2) Seri's Pizza Hut Bdae - yours too.. but perhaps u will turn to 25.
3) P.Ramlee Musical - i will. really the real soon.
4) Mum's departure to Umrah - she's coming back soon also. *sigh*
5) Siblings day out to Kungfu Panda - will do. pics still in camera.
6) Kentals 68976577th outings and the 50898967567462th pictures - alot babe!!
7) short 1hr night outing with Seri and my handsome drooling brother - jangan perasan yee..

just finished the introductory session with some head of the head 20 mins ago.. oh my.. he really can tallkkk.. sungguh mengantukkan. hehe!
and just finished talking with dearie Aiz. be patient k.. hopefuly you'll get a better paying job that suits your wants. now that we're out in the open field, catching healthy earthworms and good fields wont be easy. (what the bleah? just imagine that we're the birdsss...) hehehhe!

will be having lunch with one of my colleague. but i still prefer going alone. hehe. atleast u can get to choose what you want to eat hor. =))

khuda hafiz

i miss those times.

2008-05-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

u left without me knowing.
soon, i found it myself from your virtual portal.
How nice..
u can tell the entire world, u can wrote long entries and spend long hours shopping.
but, not a single moment to tell me of such happenings in your life.
i truly appreciate your kind thoughts.
Take care (best)..

the happy 2-0 girl, Seri Merry the Berry =))

2008-05-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

wishing this lovely girlfriend of mine a

HAPPY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!

my sincere apologies for overlooking your birth-day. u know..i very the busy u know. (hehe)

a few months back, we were complaining how the time crawls to the end of exams.

and now, look at how we grump when the time wheeze by..

hehe. and now, you've reached that BIG 2-o but not to worrry..
im sure it had been a 20 years of fruitful experiences and happenings, be it sweet or tasteless, that eventually.. made you to be a much better person as the days give way for the following hours to pass by.

semoga u panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki dan diberi keredhaan dunia & akhirat.
Mudah-mudahan, setiap doa dan permintaan akan dikabuli tuhan.
May u have all the happiness and blessings needed. =))

hope u like the gift and the "sing-along" session at Pizza Hut too.

(as for me, please dont crack your heads to buy for things...)

I will be giving you kentals the well-prepared list!! hehehehehe

Khuda Hafiz

i missed my BF (in Bombay) =))

2008-05-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

i know this might seems very outdated but i just had to update.
i just finished watching "Om Shanti Om". bought the vcd from Mustafa where i saw that 'mina-mina' woman. hehe!

if im not wrong, vasantham had shown the show the last 2 Saturdays but i missed it.
and i just finished watching.
BESTTTTT nyeee... im like refraining my fingers from pressing on the keyboaard.
my hero acted. EEEeeEEEEee... oh goodness.. relax sha. inhale,exhale...aHAHAAHahaHHAh!!!
its lke SHAH RUKH KHAN lah.. with all that half naked bods and those charming eyes. AAhhhaHHHhhhH!! SO CUTE. i can't admit further but he has his own set of charms that made me go "HaiiizzzzzzHaaaiiizzzz EEeeeeEEEHAAAiiiizzzz..." Handsome sungguh.

for those who didnt managed to watch it on vasantham,go and watch itt.. wEeeEEEeee!! touching sunggguh.. the original vcd only cost $9.90 at Mustafa. relatively cheap. ;))

and im like playing the songs over,over,under and over againnn.. hehe!
lalalallallammmmmmhhmmmlllalaalal

Hopefully this can be viewed by all.
Main Agar Kahoon(I want to tell you)
translation as follows.

before that. there were some conversation.
Om thought that Shanti wasn't coming for the date.
"Go,go and tell your Shanti. its not the glass has broken but she has broke my heart"(feeling meeling)
"Why don't u tell her yourself now?"

SRK to his friend,"There, i told you that she would come. But u said no."
*quarrel*
Shanti,"its a promise made to a friend. thats why i'm here. As a thank you for the date, i would like to give you something."
*hope the translation right*

and the song... =)

I have found you but it seems that I have lost myself
I want to tell you but then how do I tell?

Repeat

In any language that is known, I cant find the words alone
To tell you, what you mean to me

Chorus
What if i say, a beauty like yours..
Cant be found in the cosmos
Your beauty and allure I may extol(praise)
But, all this is truly, nothing at all
I have found you but it seems that I have lost myself

[haiz,isnt't he just irresistable?]

A sparkling demeanor flows from your face.
Your deep dark tresses, descend in a dazzling maze (wow! detailed description)
(this is the part where the heroine is running,for those who seems to get themselves "lost" too in the song)hehe!
Your scarf that is flowing, like a whiff of cloud blowing
Draped in your embrace are both beauty and grace

2nd Chorus
If I say, charisma as yours
Can't be found and will never be around
Your beauty and allure I may extol(praise)
But all this is truly, nothing at all
I have found you but it seems that I have lost myself

Female Part
You are very generous today
then here is the story from this day

Repeat

Now me and you cruise the same way
I'll come with you wherever you say

SRK Again
My beloved, if I say to you that you are a fairy, or riveting nymph, its true!
Your beauty and allure I may extol(praise)
But all this is truly, nothing at all

Dance,Dance,Dance..

Lalalalalalal =))

he's cuteee!! (sorry aiz) hehe!

who says i need to see the fireworks to sense the blastness?

2008-04-26T18:00:00.000+08:00

long title. but frankly, i dont know what im trying to say.
Kentals and our special guest of the day, you know.
Despite waiting and straining to witness the fireworks across.. the blastness and the brightness encircling me..can be felt. all due to the finally-decided-all-managed timeslots and schedule which eventually brings the 4 of us(inclusive of 1 known-guest) to where else but to the one end of S'pore, Vivo!

Can the Sembawang bus officials implement or start introducing bus that can conveniently brings Sembwg commuters to Vivocity? or maybe IMM?? perhaps, Tampines? should be.. anywhere lah.
Bus numbers to be issued? dont worry. can ask from my workplace. hehehe! how about 895 that goes to Vivo... 598 that goes to IMM... not bad. u see... not that difficult. just get 2 drivers for two shifts and just use Express way. confirm create revenue. ;) feeedbacckkss!! hehe

im not some complain queen ah. but im pretty princess. undeniable fact.
talking about 'brightness', that this particular lady in mid 40s who caught my attention.
"Eh,did you guys see that woman wearing shades eating?"

"I think the food's too bright for her" kekekek.. mean,mean sha. meaner,meaner to those who laugh along. hehe! somehow rather, this particular mina caught my attention. dont ask why i think she's a mina. one look and you'll know. and her bf is like holding on to the back of her pants. what the bleah. takut seluar jatuh agaknya. hehe!
im not gossiping.
but these people manage to stay in my mind. should feel honored you know.

went Banquet. walked around, buy nothing,see nothing. we end up looking,engrossed and talking with each other. so, went to some feeeling place outside (where this batam confused-ship can't seem to be able to park the ship and end up right infront of us. scary lah) hehe.
had fun with the girls. i really do enjoy myself tRRemEEoundously with them. (no -ed cause its always =) hope this bonding will stays on.

I just killed a hornet. and its like taking 10 mins before settling down.oh my..i feel so bad.
sorry Mr Hornet.

=)) pest-free environment is what we should strive for!

combat the sick-drome virus!!

2008-04-23T16:50:00.000+08:00

WEeeEee.. im back. (much healthier internally in terms of my bowel movements too!) hehe!

have a few goody news..
1) Im recovering. or maybe i've recovered. just having slight coughs. but it should be fine. hope so! to those out there,please take care. take every precautions. these Mr and Mrs Virus are like everywhere. sometimes, i feel that this might be due to the overwhelming number of immigrants coming here. u dont know what kind of virus they brought with them along.. ooff! even other nationalities are getting better job than the locals.. (tsk,tsk,tsk)- thats not supposed to be part of the 'good' news thou. =)

2) IRAS called me!! AHHHHH!!OOOO!!!WEEEEEeeEEE!! like finally lah. hehe. they called me on Mon morning. (i was hoping that iras would call me during this week) and true enough..taaddaaa!!
"Hi, can i speak to Ms Shazanah?"
"Ya speaking..(stammering abit)"
"Hi, im (dont know what Mr_________ ) from HR Iras. Just to inform that you have been successful in the interview and we are offering this position to you"
*gasp*
-trying to remain composure, i continued by asking them about the salary and the employees' benefits. it was rather appealing and importantly, Motivating! hehe. in short, im getting the benefits that every civil servants would enjoy. anyway, i was offered a position of Tax Officer at Self Employed Dept. used to work under Salaried Employee previously during school attachment, but it wont be much of a diff.
"My colleague will be calling you to confirm the signing of appointment letter and to fix a suitable date on when you can come down to sign the appointment letter"
and taaddaa!! iras has accepted me. just like what i had wanted a few weeks back.
but irritating lah..
when you've found a job,other positions start pouring in. hope this will be a "change in blessing"
i know i might be actively changing jobs. but if whatever that you're doing just dont suits you, are u going to slog your entire life with that job? i dont think so. fundamentally, i have to love the nature of the job and should be able to adapt with the environment. then comes the comparison of salary and benefits wise.
Furthering my studies?
of course im concern and im looking into it.
but just want to take a break from all the pressures, papers, pens and the "mugs"
13 yrs of education..all the way beb! takleh tahan sungguh.

3) im just happy.

but the craze phenomena of poly life will be stigma in my life. hehe! its not something negative ok! but i just miisss school. travelling along YCK to AMK is enough to make me 'drool' and to have the thinking of "how i wish im still in school" (being late wont be much of a prob too.) hehe!
but school wont be as crazy without the company of crazy people whom were those 1st graders of craz-ers that i got to know. (you know yourself ;)
another unsurfaced blessing.

im turning in...to BED!
she will be on leave till Fri. atleast i can irritate her by typing Sim instead of SIM.
what the bleah?

sami yusuf.. my newfound admirer (SRK still stays on top of the chart OK!)

its been awhile

2008-04-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

Heeeelllloooo All! (groggy,croaky,trying-to-scream voice)
hehehehe!

okok. its been ages. oh wells. the evil harmful particles seemed to be attacking me.
internally.

the past 4 days were not "fours" of my days that i look forward to in the future.
it had been quite awhile since Mr Fever, Ms Flu, Mdm Sorethroat and UNEXPECTEDLY, there was another visitor too.

Uncle Constipation decided to drop by and messed around with my digestive system.
hehhee! in short, the entire "evil" family decided to invade and challenged my poor little immune system. (am i telling a Powerpuff Girls story?) hehe

anyways. I was down with sorethroat which leads to flu then to fever on last thurs but i still went to work thinking that the usual ibuprofen will eased it down.
it got worst on Thurs night. the fever did subside after a few hours. after which, the entire ms shazanah's system will have that confused cold-heaty feeling.AGAIN and again.
this is result of not sitting at that Mr Toilet Bowl for more than 4 days. (i did pee thou) hehe!
was kinda weak for that period of time. i even ignore calls and smses. sorry seri. i knew u called me but i just couldnt bring myself to pick up and answer your call. felt kinda like 2 elephants just stepped on me for 3 secs. hehe!

went Doc and took MC on Friday. luckily, weekends were coming by.more rest day.
seriously people. drink lots of water. and papaya. and banana. do good to your digestive system. i think mine has rebelled tooo much. hehe!
i had antibiotics and i hope that will be sufficient to fight any other particles or foreign unidentified objects for the next 3 to 4 years. =)
as for now. im recovering. just slight coughs. and importantly, i think i have paid up all my "Sleeping-Debts".

hehe. just a few updates.
1) got a call from MOM for interview...rejected
2)received an email from CPF for interview...rejected
3)got a call from IRAS for interview...ACCEPTED!
4)received a letter from SPF for application as Management Support Officer...Pending(will be delivering soon)

i dont know if some of you have experienced such situations. as for my case, just when I've found and settle down quite nicely in a job, all these interviews start to pour in. EEeeeeEEee..
when I'm desperately looking for one, there was none. and now... (go with the flow,sha.if you dont like it, give it a blow!) hehhe!
my new-founded mantra. =))

that should be all. for now.
as for my previous entry, i thought the media would stop updating news about her.
shockingly, they did continued. even to the extent when the mum had to urge people to give time to her daughter and hopefully she'll returned to the right path.
i dont think i can do much than just commenting but i can only pray and hope that may God open her heart and mind and may she be led to the righteous path as blessed by Him. Amin.

Da KentotZZ Seri and Aiz.... THANK YOU for the well wishes.
i think my inbuilt speaker is booming at an acceptable audible rate...just for you guys. (Shikin seems to be... *PPOOOOFFF* hehehe!) and i think i should be able to talk as per my "normal" volume. with a touch of 'Rockers' accent. Yo Dudesss
hehe!
not forgetting to WenHui also. Thanks dear. about the previous Saturday's outing, no worries about that. there are other saturdayS too. ;)

khuda hafiz

sebab,motif atau alasan?

2008-04-01T17:07:00.000+08:00

this entry will be referring to the main headline news at Berita Harian dated 01/04/2008, Tuesday.

this is with regards about the genius Mathematician student with the name of S who was enrolled in Oxford Uni when she was only 13 years old!!

the only setback is that.. her life has drifted apart from her family and things weren't what she had expected. news of the day : "clever student turns into a prostitute"

just like you and me, im sure such catchy headings will turn your head twice to read the details, don't you? i read on the what i called as, a life changing catastrophe that had struck her and i truly feel sorry and am sympathise with her fate.

before moving on further, purpose of this entry is Not to criticize media's efforts in highlighting such overseas news to us and I'm also not trying to be judgmental with the issues here as well, I dont think im in a suitable position to make a stand about such matters.
and so, anyways...
this will be in malay.

Sebagai seorang pembaca dan pelanggan yang setia, apakah sebab ataupun motif pihak berita untuk memaparkan berita seperti itu?
Adakah ia membawa pedoman atau memberi pengajaran kepada anak generasi muda kita?
jika Ya, di manakah ruang dalam akhbar yang menunjukkan komen2 dari para kounselor?
Walaupun berita tentang saudari S mahu disiarkan, kenapa berita tersebut dipampangkan sebesar-besar di halaman pertama suratkhabar tersebut?
Saya berasa kecewa akan di manakah sikap keprihatinan dan peri kemanusiaan masyarakat Melayu/Islam Singapura?
Walaupun dia seorang pelajar yang terkenal dengan kepintaran beliau, saya berpendapat bahawa setiap individu berhak dan diberi pilihan untuk menentu kehidupan perjalanan masing-masing.
seperti biasa, kita mengharapkan yang terbaik bagi setiap orang bagi mengharumkan nama masyarakat kita.
jadi, tidakkan saudari S berhak bagi menentukan kehidupan dia? hanya kerana beliau ditempatkan dengan pelajar yang terpandai, kita tidak boleh mengharapkan benda ataupun pencapaian yang tinggi untuk dia. dia dianugerahkan dengan otak yang cemerlang yang membolehkan dia masuk ke universiti nombor satu di dunia.
namun, adakah ini yang dia mahu? Saya cukup pasti bahawa dia ingin mengejar sebuah impian yang dia idamkan. seperti kita semua.
tapi,disebabkan dengan keadaan keluarga yang tak menentu, hidup saudari S bagai dilanda badai dan lama-kelamaan, beliau mudah dipesong dan sudah lari dari arah yang diredhai Tuhan. kita tetap manusia dan kita tidak boleh menuding jari kepada siapa2 pun. setiap perkara yang berlaku dalam hidup kita memang sudah tertulis and ditakdirkan.
untuk menambah lagi, saya masih hairan akan kenapakan berita ini disiarkan di dalam "Berita". tidakkah berita begin seharusnya seperti di dalam majalah ataupun di mukasurat yang terakhir?
jikalau mahu "menjual" berita, kita bukan syarikat yang sedang bersaing. berita harian dan berita minggu.ada lagi ke??
yang membuat saya tidak berasa puas hati ialah bahawa saudari S bukanlah warga Singapura( alert me if im wrong)
jadi,berita ini dibawah section "Berita Luar Negara"
daripada berita yang boleh menjatuhkan maruah seseorang, adalah lebih baik jika kita menyiarkan berita mengenai Formula One, The Flyer ataupun bermacam2 heheeh!

akan disambung.

Khuda Hafiz

those random sleepless nights

2008-03-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

OOOhhhh..makcik SERI.
i have not received any complaints so far for the use of my mini fonts.
perhaps u can adjust the fonts of your comp or
you can use your specs or
you can use a MAGNIFYING LENS!
wahahaha! jangan marah yee.
hehehe!

okok.i will enlarge it. leceh lah. nak kena change manually. hmpf!
was out to Tanjong Pagar with mum settling some errands at Makam Habib Noh
that place scarrryy lah. so "ghostown"yyyy.
then to Malaysia Railway Station which is at Keppel Road.
they have excellent humungous satisfying looking Roti John. YUmmmy DDOOoooddlez.
with an exploded dosage of mayo oii!
hehe. looking at my description for food, i feel like im literally describing a warplace. hehe!

on sat.
went to teach Aiz's Cousin, Khairul aka Arul, this quiet reserved P3 kid.
i like soo have to talk to him. say one word,he replied one.
say ten words,he replied one.
aiayayaaya.. i think he must be enrolled in Ms Zanah's PHONICS AND SPEECH class.
connnfiirrrmm boleh berbual. macam cikgu zanah juga. hehheh!

after which.
went to Airporrt.
met my fren aka "misai: =))
hehe! dinnering at Secret's Recipe. makan sakan oii.. so not ladylike of me.
who cares. if u want to eat, go ahead. sometimes, u have got to listen to your "inner" self tooo
hahaa! had the "Catch of the Day with Lobster Sauce"
ratings = 6.5/10
presentation was ok but the taste of the sauce is abit bland.
the lobster sense can only be tasted after u swallow the sauce. (huh?)
nevermindlah. go and try.
maybe it will taste better at other outlets but the "murderer" always comes last.
OREO CHEESE CAKE
yummmy doooodlez! sedddaaapp ooiiitt!
i so like lah. if only i have an external container like external hard disks to save all my "new" files in..If only.
no link? maybe lah. kentot,kentot. prrrooottt!
hehee!
the surprise is that i met...Ms Lilian Ho, my NYP ex lecturer.
oh my. she was with her triplets. and the husband. so motherly.
and she looked different with that striking red dress. but she still looks stunning. =)
the next surprise.
i've got a nice, readful present.. a storybook from Harris worth $17. fooyooo..
"i thought u have a collection of the books from that author (some Paulo)?"
-silence-
"wait,wait..take the behind,behind one. the book look more nicer"
hehe!
"nah"
"eh, you think my bag what ah? safekeeping locker eh?"
-silence-
"thats for your lifetime safekeeping. im giving u this book"
DUSH,DISK,sooo DISHY of me...
hehe
*paiseh oi*
after which..

it was family gathering. meeting my lovely cozzies,Raudha and Yazmeen.
supper at Mcd Reservoir road.
thats it. and im noddding infront of this monitor.
ZzzZzzZZzzzzz WAIT!

these are pics taken during the outing with Halimah and Hafiizah

"mah! pls take note of the code okokkok!"
"yelah,yelah.."
weeeeEEeeE!"
there's this dress cost $129 thats yummylicious prettyyy..
=)

that satifsying look after the devour of Haagen Dazs ice cream

"AH! random,random"
;) hehe!

i just love to take pictures of laughters and smiles.
maybe, thats the only feeling that can't be questioned?
smile people =)) (with an extra chin) hehehe!

Khuda Hafiz

my new baby PC

2008-03-28T18:38:00.000+08:00

WeeEEeEE!

i have a new member of the 'device' family in the house which is
*drum roll and tadadadadadtaaattdaddadatttaadad*

I have a new comprehensive,sleek and handsome looking computer.
hehe. got it under subsidised by AMP organization and Neu PC Plus Programme.
Thanks to all thats involved in assisting my family and me. =)
i had this nick in my msn and someone pm me.

"Eh,whats a Baby PC? is it something like a new innovation from Microsoft?"
Dushk, DOUBLE dush and TRIPLE dishhkk!!
"Umm..thats what i called my new pc as.. BABY PC. hehehhhehehe"
"oh ok. I thought it was some new creation like the tablet PC."
Hehhehhhe. kaklar seh.
baby pc?
Microsoft. take note of it.
PC for babies?
NO WAY! tooo harmful. (tsk,tsk,tsk)

just as an extra update. i will confirm plus "chop" be working at Starhub, Cuppage Road as a sales administrator.
have signed the appointment letter on Wed and went for the pre-employment check up at Tanjong Pagar with mummy on Thurs. went through the entire procedure for the medical check up in less than 40 mins. best ah! hehe!
well, they wanted me to report work on Friday but, I would much prefer if my first day is on Monday instead. and this is a 5 day work week of office hours.
Alhamdulilah.

went out with Halimah and Hafiizah on Thurs which is like a few hours ago.
hehe! had fun catching up with each other's life stories and happenings within our secondary school mates whom some of them just dont want and will never move on with their life.
what a pity.
hope they'll see through something somehow rather.
im kinda of feeling beaten up. hehe.
where else would we go if not for that someone over-devoted-store,Esprit.
its your off day mah..
kau tak boring ke pergi kedai company kau?
taklah. best. (while folding and hanging the messy clothes back)
some people are just overly attached with their jobs.
hehheheh!

pics will be up soon.
in the meantime. one of my favourite song from Sami Yusuf.
My Ummah (UmatKu)
enjoy.

"knuckle down"

2008-03-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

hmm.. how and what shall i start with?

OK! I've got a job. alhamdulilah,alhamdulilah
with a quite well known telecommunication company, Starhub (like duh!)
hehe!

for the position of relationship manager.
i wish..

its just Sales Coordinator BUT im not doing sales. phew!

and below..are the brief details of my job scope.

-To provide sales administrative support to the sales teams
-Maintaining close communication with customers on order processing, management and fulfillment
-Attend to cust requirements, complaints and feedbacks in the most efficient and service-oriented way. (my favorit u..)
-Liaise with Customer Services, Finance and other product business units to ensure services are provided in a timely manner.

my office will be at Cuppage Rd and my working hours are perfectly ideal. =)

but something made me think twice.
its a contractual based job for one year.
and working in a contract gives limitation to u as an employee of that organization. (do i see this somewhere in my HRM module?)
hehe!
my annual leave.medical leave is fine.
and Wed which is like Today, will be the signing of my appointment letter.

*lets rewind and wind a litttlee*
as usual, i was sending out resumes in a MASSly basis. hehe. and i happened to surf Starhub's website and there goes my mouse click 'Careers with Starhub'
and most of the job either needs you to have a degree and bloody years of experience OR you just need a standard O level qualifications. so..either i will fall into being the under qualified or Over Qualified. hehe!
then,i came upon that position but knowing its a one yr contract, "why not give it a try?" pros and cons do exist but it all depends on how i view the entire job. atleast this can be a stepping stone for me to gather experiences which hopefully would be sufficient for me to get a better paying job. =))

i was called for interview on Tues at 5.30pm. but due to unforeseen circumstances, i was held up. (grins) and after filling up the norms, i was brought to the interview room and there are 2 interviewers. one of which is the HR lady who called and another one is a ...sigh... a guy. indiany looking with transition lens and those perfect eyes. hehe! and wearing some suit from G2000 or something like that lar..
*hindi song in the background*

reality check!

the interview finished about 6.30pm and when i was asked to describe my personality, i blurted "Cheerful, Bubbly,..." and the guy said"Ya,we can see that" and that smile. ;)
and i did mention something about "Maintaining a 2 way dialogue sessions with our customers??" macam real je.
hehehe!
other dorts of questions include on my past experiences in handling cust from IRAS and ways to handle the different types of customers.
this job requires me to do intensive emailings to customers. high end customers. =))
*keching,keching*
so..they asked quite alot of customer retention and stuffs.ooof! so CRM. hehe!

it went very well i would say and stepping out of that building occurs to me that i can sense positive electrons and useful energy atoms evolving around me. i've never felt relaxed or at calm at any interview and i can even giggle during the interview. dushk!

i'll be going to Starhub building to ask much more HR related queries at 2pm. all thanks to sister's tips. hehe!
and I've forgotten to inform my secondary buddies about the change of jobs.
and this was quite a random meet up done at Starbucks, Civics Centre at Woodlands and stopover at the ladies and to Charles & Keith.

presenting Halimah, Hafiizah and Shazanah. =)

and i "invested" in something. pretty,pretty design =))

khuda hafiz

2008-03-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

catch the full details...
soon.

Real Soon. =)

Khuda Hafiz

Continuing to the Conquest to meet ShahRukh =)

2008-03-23T18:50:00.000+08:00

somehow rather..
the Airport photos(earlier entry?scroll,scroll down!)
are not posted fully though.

thats Mak Bedah and Mak....Lawa SHA!! wahahaha.

I'm SOOooOOO meeting someone. but the time.. its just not right dear.
just see who's there,Aiz.she feeeling,feeling u are her husband. Pui!! (kekekeee)

maintained face...Shikin aka Mak JOYAH
worst-maintained face...I'll go with the votes.(readers, you just have to tell me what color shirt is she wearing..
But,i think I have the suitable nominated candidate. kekekekek..lawa ah tu muka. ishk,ishk,ish..

seri,seri.
she's either posing, enjoying the sensation of drinking that milk oooorrr...
she might be thinking,"I think a cup wont be that so sufficient for me"
*giggles and gags*

any needed introduction for such a heavenly kaya oooozzzing butterrr mellltting place?
Ya Kun Kaya Toast at Terminal 2.

Hugs,Misses and Lovelies. =))
they function like some OSIM full chair support as well as...treatment for earphones disorder(like for my delicate harmless ears,hmpf!)

HE's stilllll MINE!! ahhh!! haiyak!

and..i need another YaKun to be establish at North area specifically Sembawang. =))

"give it to me baby,ah huh ah huh"

just like how colorful that background is..
exactly like how colorful my life in Poly was..
excluding the public telephone,of course. hehe!
thanks to the colorful bunch i had,having and will be having.

listening to My Ummah by Sami Yusuf. =)
like for the 8th times?

Khuda Hafiz

full packed week

2008-03-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

it has and had been a fuuullll and buuuuussy week for me..
maklumlah,fofular sangat. hehe!
just to sharing-maring some information to bloggers and readers who have loyally view my blog all this while.

i'll be starting work... 8 hours from now!
oh my.. kinda of mixed feeelings. but insyallah, things will turn out to be alright.
i would say that this might be my official job after my 13 yrs of mugging and studying.But. that doesnt mean i will stop whatever that i want to pursue. i am still and will always be waiting for an interview with NIE again. im still waiting.
teaching will always be the main priority. thats for sure. atleast i have choices. rather than those unchoiceless people...pity them. (no offence)

a serious job, i would say. as an account assistant. me = figures and balance sheet? oh my. sooo like NOOooo lah.
but i will still try. who knows. tak kenal maka tak cinta. Ceh,gedebah! hehehe.
its an indian shipping company at Tanjong Pagar. my sister's friend's recommendation.
a very fatherly boss. hehe!
hopefully,i can gain much exposure and experience there. =)

oh yes. i just remembered. if you were to scroll down, there's an entry about this particular guy. and surprisingly, i received lots of encouraging, motivating funny comments at my tag boards. Thanks ALLL!!! especially to Shikin, Aiz, Seri, Ilmy and others whoo shared the same feelings that i went through. but now, im perfectly fine and im sooo not bothered by his presence eventhough he did try to call me a few days back on the basis of returning my last 2 weeks call. what the blair?? apa-apa je lah ye.. thanks girls for the tags and the support. hehe. tak sempat me nak balas ur responses..
hope u lovely girls like the small token of appreciation yaaaar.. hehehe. and my nonsensical writings. i miss the kampong minahs..makbedah,makpetom and makJoyah. do i get that JOYAH name right?? heheheh!
(sigh) may we be more closer as we move on to the next phase of life. insyallah,insyallah.
i want to seeee u girls sooooon ok! hehe.
and seri,thanks for the smses (macam seweet gitulah)
and aiz,thanks for the bracelets.(she sure does DIY. Done It by Yan(aiz's short name) heheee!!!
and shikin, thanks for all the unmentioned things and the forgettablesss.. heheheh.

that should be all for now.
im bringing your well wishes with me later. =)

*photos are in organize-ation mode*

my hands smell of kari and my eyes all teary

2008-03-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

tiltle sounds like a poem..apa2 je lah ye.
after much requests,i just have to update u know.
people want to know my happenings happenings revolving around me. hehe!

just left a comment at Aiz's blog. before that,i checked my email inbox and clicked on the 17th page. last page. 2003, when i first signed up for my ever first email. hehe.
flood of recollections and "confusing" memories. the 1st person who sent an email to me was my friend which is on 15 Aug 2002.
and i was in Sec 2, 14 yrs old.

and now,im in (nowhere),still 19yrs young.
and there was a few emails in particular to the person that ive just managed to get in touch now. that should be around 6 yrs? time do whizzzed by.
and i just cant help to think how foolish i was during the secondary times and my classmate sending me email to clear some misunderstandings while actually.. we can talk in class.
virtual communication does help in relationship building. (CRM)??
and looking at the vocab used and the format of the email... aiya ya ya..
but seriously, those memories are the ones i retain till today. the puppy love and crush. hahaha. funny!

my life that used to be a viking ride..

changes into the S'pore flyer.slow and steady. hehe!

take care all. comments for the prev posts will be put up in the later magazine.

Nancy Ajram - Coca Cola Ad(8th)

2008-02-25T19:06:00.000+08:00

just a video from the lebanon singer, Nancy Ajram.

and this is her latest album thats coming out sooon. wee!!

i wonder why there is such YOUs here.

2008-02-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

this might not be some happy entry which i usually blog. reason being..
i just feel like sharing my 3hr experience with a moron. (is that a strong word? maybe, an immature individual who just happen not to have a BIG mirror at home)

i wouldnt consider this as date but just a meet up. happened to know this particular guy, H.
where and how I met him will not be discussed here. just someone random.

well, we had our first meet up in which we went to somewhere. again, the location isnt the main issue here. we finally settle down and eat. 1st impression= neutral. i think he just look somehow ok but its just on the plus,plus side.

and seeing the way he ate can easily turn me off. (wats more if he's doing that infront of Seri) hehe! and soo, 3pc chicken, whipped potato, and all the sides along wirh 3/4 of my drink.. Gone! dowwn to the bellows.
and me,1pc pathetic looking chicken with 6 fries.

andddddd.... this is what he said." frankly speaking, i think you should change your image or perhaps go for a makeover." stuuupid!
and he didnt just said that twice but for the rest 15 mins.
telling me..assuring me.
why i should go for makeover?
what's the benefits?
how to go about?
when i should go?
.....
...
..
.
I.D.I _ _

he emphasized the entire facts on why makeover should be good for me.
"Since you're in Business Mgmt, you need to look presentable when meeting with clients."
"I know i look shagged.i was from here to here and there"
"No, its not that. maybe you can get a proper glasses thats suitable for presentation and perhaps you should consider rebonding"
Zuuuuuup! (thats my blood rising) eee! pantangnya bila ada je orang comment tentang rambut aku! eee!

"over time, i learnt that we represents the company we're in and we should look presentable so that our appearance reflects the image of our company." bullshit!
"i was a nerd but i told myself, we have to move on with it. i cant continue looking like a nerd and thats why i've changed" to a what? bull?
" and i personally think that you should also move on. oh ya, now i know who resembles you. Ugly Betty! heheheh!"
like HELLO! who are you to tell me to move on.what do you know about my life? im fine being associated with ugly betty but im proud to say that atleast i look like a celebrity, rather than u. eugh!

"loook, im very much confident with myself. you doesnt have to tell me anything. I am what i am. and i do think that i look presentable during presentations and im very much aware of biz etiquettes." so, what was he thinking? that i dont deserve to be with him as i dont look alright for him? and i should change because i dont look normal with the usual rebonded, fading eyebrows minas is it? and so, i should look "normal" like them? for goodness sake, its our 1st meeting. cant u just sealed that filthy mouth of yours?what a great impression created and how would u like to hear me saying, " i dont think u resemble a healthcare industry but more likely from a junk f&b company"
continuing.."i think you should mirrored yourself. you arent even looking presentable at all with that shirt and jeans and that portruding tummy of yours." i know im mean. but im sorry readers. you should have seen his expression when he was trying to "convince" me.

"why are you wearing a red formal shirt?"
"oh, because i was having presentation and i've the white one but i washed it."
"why didnt u just wear the white one again? I thought u said that u dont bother what people think"
"look, thats not the issue here but thats what i called as PERSONAL HYGIENE"
another stupid mistake spotted.

u should have just passed by and see the way he eat the half boiled eggs from set B of Ya Kun's menu. im very much particular about the way guys eat as it shows what kind of person u are.
the thing is already slimy and its keeps slurping down to the bowl from his mouth when he tried to slurp. EUGH!
just by typing this now is enough to disgust me completely.
and u said. i dont look presentable?

why didnt i leave? cause my things are somehow rather with him.

no offence readers but those were the exact words said by that mo___
and those in italic are my thoughts.

girls, if any guys were to say that u should change your appearance just because he said something like what I've mentioned above.
please dont.
they're just jerks.
you are what you are and that makes u special from the rest.
and he should like you for who you are and not what he wants.
he's not worth. and he has no rights to belittle u. so, dont be deceived.

"i dont understand why all girls that meet will leave once seeing me"

i think im the next one. =)

rejuvenating outing w my kentals.

2008-02-18T09:20:00.000+08:00

presenting to u.. shah rukh,here I come..the drama mama movie.
Enjoys!

an outing without pictures is... kental(less)
hehe.. posting w captions will give u guys a better idea. enjoy scrolling. ;)

this is what i referred as "Irritating Airport Race" organised by Seri Radhhiah Bte Mustaffa and Noorashikin Bte Yahya.
we had been walking at that same spot for like 4 times. when.. finally(much emphasis) they managed to pop out from somewhere. cant blamed my eyesight. should be because of their ability to camouflage. hhehe!

thank you Mr Japanese guy.
terminal 3 stopover.

pretty reflections=pretty photographer. oh wells!

"you should have not pick up my call. thats my pyare from Bombay"
mera Shahrukh! (bleahz aiz) wahahah

"i will always be here waiting for you, jaan"
*mohabbatein music in the background*

"seri, whatever u said..i still need to go and see him. please,get me a flight to Bombay.
for Ms Shazanah. no aiz!" wahaha

"But, before my departure, please. let me take a few pictures of memories...like infront of the lift?"

special thanks to Mr Timer.

dropping by to have lunch.
"i dont think Bombay has such fast food.will be cooking 'asam pedas' for shahrukh later"
wahaha!

less tension on the face bebseh!

unintentional capture? Ladies at level 3 of Terminal 3

one of my favorites. =)

one of the "shameful" pic taken.

much lovess..

thats one of a distorted looking pinball.
hee!

huggies!
and..this is what i will do seeing ShahRukh. (sigh)

"just where is the flight to Bombay?"

hah! ambil kau. hehe

see that makcikk mina shikin. hehe!

and that is Seri's victorious face after her farting session. Eugh!

"im soo going to miss S'pore after my departure"

Seri,ME and Shikin

the Egyptian inscriptures on stripes?
not bad..

what shall i say?

oh..kaya toast oozing butter.. yummmyyy! =)

that is only 1% of the total pictures taken.
33 pictures posted..

275 pictures taken..
thanks Shikin's camera!

will i be going to Bombay?stay tuned. ;)

my eyes are doing it again

2008-02-05T08:15:00.000+08:00

shazanah is at Firas' house with a wet face.
supposed to be teaching.
18 degrees celsius.
comfy chairs.
equates to... half droopy eyes, sleepy head Ms Dibah.

hope shikin is still surviving there at Jurong West. hee
kepala mau pusing man. hee
had Entre's presentation. as usual that LAM(b)
ada je comments je. tak masuk akal betul.
he thinks we only have one module ah? please lor.
NEW DISCOVERY today. *jeng,jeng,jeng*
ask seri ah.
hehe.something about guys. hahahhah!

girls,if u are with a guy for 15 mins, please.
i repeat please find an excuse to be excused from them
u might never know what they are thinking. =)
hmm.. hehe.
that should be it. PPCRM presentation tmrw. on Ben & Jerry.
yeehaaa!!
cowies..here mama comes. hee.

where the fingers lay on

2008-02-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

something happened to my "monster" lappie.
nothing critical. just the replacement of new keyboard. and no cost?
weeeEEE! thanks Extended Warranty Harvey Norman and Kwiktron Pte Ltd.
lallalala. testing,testing. alas,the buttons are working as it is supposed to be. atleast i dont have to press 5 to get this symbol, -
*dishk*
entry today is nothing much. oh yes,im in a midst of getting photos of my tuition kids. must kena forced. hehe! im thinking of letting go some assignments but all seems to be over-bonded with me. sha's motherly nature. oh wells.
Mark's Spencer. notice the headgear?
i think i looook gor_ _ _ _ _
thanks ____. and im sorry to hear about your mum.
caramel frappe. ive learnt something. try to strike up a convo with the barista when they are 'swirling' that caramel on your whipped cream. wooo.. a dash of pleasures.. i need caffeine...mccafe caramel frap is also not that bad.
what i need badly. its even better than CCC,aiz.
custard baybeh.. by dunkinney!

live the life you love

2008-01-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

heloo fellow readers. missing me? oh wells, i do understand your anticipation. no worries. haha!
the entry title? the phrase was somehow rather intrusive during my project discussion in the morning. can't help it but have got to write it down somewhere. and here it goes.. hee

happy, happy people. hope alls well. talking about <----- that brand, there's such a drink brand called ALLSWELL. how you read it?
Me, Alls Well
Aiz, All Swell.....*double Dishk*

keke. bimbo,bombo.hehe!

schedule has been rather tight and squeezy and heart wrenching and i-cant-breathe-anymore kinda of feelingS. tuition assignments flowing in with projects and deadlines piling. have time, no time.*shake the head, baybeh* hehe!

referring back to my title, i love the life i'm loving and am living. despite of the hectic-ness, atleast im able to be more focus on that particular attention rather than when i'm free where all the thoughts will drift. sometimes, when u just have to forget somethings or someone, its better to be busy and occupied. atleast the thinking of that person lessen. goody,good.

just chatted with one of my yr 1 polymates. we really need some gatherings and talkings. catching ups(despite on bumping into each other at mcd, always!) on the latest happenings and cracking people's hp lens, right larin? hehe! my sec close fren, halimah also called. unexpected thou. telling me her free schedule. so sweet lah. she's working,more commitment but yet can still set aside some timings for me or us(i wouldnt want to left u out if we go out hor!)

taught 3 students. Rasyiqah,Raudha and Farah. spent the whole 2hrs with Raudha on solving her one page two numbered multiplication homework. phew!
spent the same two hours guiding Rasyiqah on places and values like tens, ones and hundreds. remember ppl? i had to.
spent the after 2 hrs with Farah at Khatib, the malay English,chinese accent speaking girl.
was shocked lah. i came in. "hello kakak, kakak apa khabar?" say that phrase in one sentence, emphasizing each letter and focusing on the appropriateness. in bahasa baku lagi.
hehe!taught her Malay language 2 hours. yeenaaadaaa! tell me something man.
i would neeed Cikgu Fazil. hee.
talking about him. I've yet to give him something... my malay emcee script. DUSH,DUSH.. like 3 years ago? supposed to type it out for him. i stil remembered. shucks man. sorry cikgu. hee

k lah, my eyes are playing jigsaw puzzle. have got to solve it 1st.
ZzzzzzzzZZzzzYYYZzZzzCCcZzzzzz... =)

its just something about them that made me a killer

2008-01-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

i just sucked up a bettle 5 mins ago...

up the vacuum hose it goesss...weee!!

yesssAAAA! thanks Philips Performer. u're just my "singing" hero.

atleast im much sympathetic than my mom. she would grab the fugly,itchy crawling looking little monster and throw them in a cup full of Breeze Color. its undiluted of course. undiluted? = concentrated? whatever it is.
then, they'll end up swimming. and less than 48 secs, dead!

these beetles and those other flying monster just never learnt their lessons.
once in, no out! this is my house. its my responsibility to keep it safe, sound and monster-less.
yeesssAAAA!
by....

"Mak!!,Nashiir!! ada kumbang! eeeee... (running hysterically)"

atleast i help thou. spreading the news and getting physical help from them. hehhehe!

moral of the story. always have a vacuum cleaner and keep yourself sorethroat-free..
in case if u ever need to shout seeing a 3cm beetle. flying and buzzing, of course!

killed beetle as of today : 1
killing attempts : 2 (somehow rather, the power was not as high)

happy,happy...
projects and exams are coming. might not be blogging that much!

as i was commenting..

2008-01-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

im watching season 2 of Ugly Betty.... oh my gooodness.. its Ugly Betty people...
wahahah! im enjoying it.super lah. thanks to cuzzie for the giveaway of the URL for access.
bleahx to u guys! hehehe.

just came back from cuzzie yazmeen's place. had fun..eating maybe? the mum grilled sting ray..yummy doodles. but i think the happening,frightening thing just now was the haunting. ghost storytelling..wooooooOOooooOOoo
hee.. the conversation heated up when my mom pops out about a review of the story Jangan Pandang Belakang which is Don't Turn Behind,a Malaysia production of a ghost story. which was continued by my uncle who is a taxi driver and had well experienced such things during his driving and even infront of his house. (and im seated near the door,great.) scary but true. hehe. will not relate the stories here as this entry is not supposed to be a ghost story telling entry. hee.

sidetracking. just watched the videos of the finale party for Cleo's Bachelor 2007 which was held at St James Powerstation.
its not that i know how to dance *giggles* BUT, i seriously think the guys have to get better choreographing skills or get enough practice.they're dancing Hip Hop but it looks like they are better off in ballroom dancing. hehhee..oh my, mean sha. tsk,tsk..hehe.
maybe the guys did good.girls screaming. seriously(imagining shikin saying it) i dont find anything unique except for their hot bods and some gorgeous faces. dancing moves and grooves? nah, not up to a typical standard. maybe they're shy. umm..

im doing this particular project on marketing and advertising where Cleo Bachelor is the topic. supposed to propose and come up with better ideas to promote this event in terms of advertising, public relations and the other idontknowthename tools. but, we have actually interviewed one of the top 50 cleo bachelors 2007 who happens, not happen but maybe destined? well, he is my close friend and thank u sooo much for taking the time off in helping us.(eventhough most of the time he's giggling and looking half awake) hehe. thanks Fahmy. =)

more info about the Bachelors 2007 can be surf at this site. www.yahoo.com.sg/cleobachelors
hady mirza was Cleo Bachelor 2004. i soooo dont know. hee.

ending here. i think the video for ugly betty has finished uploading. take care all.
lalalala...

2008-01-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

I, Shazanah Rahman would like to take this opportunity to wish all bloggers and readers a joyous,wonderful,fruitful....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

may the new year brings out the best in everyone of us and may we be blessed with God's grace and may the new set of 12 months makes us even stronger in facing obstacles and hurdles in life,insyallah.

i dont quite have a fixed or perhaps any resolution. well,being me, myself.
hehe! i may not fulfill or abide to my resolution but i do have sketches of future plans for me.
hopefully, God will hear me out and perhaps fulfill everyone's dreams and passion,insyallah.

my deepest condolences to the terrible loss suffered by the pakistanis for the assassination of a well respectable and a strong charismatic leader, Benazir Bhutto.
my heartfelt sympathy goes to her loved ones. may Pakistan finds peace and harmony.
we hope and we pray but its all up to them and hopefully God will hear the prayers of those less fortunate especially in Afghanistan and Palestine.

pardons for the solemn entry cause i really feel for them. which occurs to me that, we being in singapore should always be grateful and bersyukur that we are living peacefully despite of the ups and downs that we experienced.

my new year starts by attending to a religious function at Mujahideen Mosque which is located at Queenstown. was quite broody and braggy about going there with the whole family but at the end of it, i truly know the real meaning of happiness and a true perception of 'enjoyment' which can only be felt when we are closer to God. i do envy those going to the countdown places. no doubts about that. i'm still young mah. but then when Ustaz Shafi or better known as "Ustaz Handsome"(name given by sis) said something about people finding peace and going to places that can only provide a one-time enjoyment places.
i was thinking. will that enjoyment lasts?
watching the repeat telecast of the countdown, what happen after the numerals counting from 10 to 1?
people got drunk and haywired. is that the "real peace" that they have always wanted?
maybe,for some. (i think i'm sounding quite monotonic with this speech)
but these were my reflections. hope it sets us to think. rationally.

till then..much loves.

Mera Idol

2007-12-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

hearing his voice.imagining his smile. no doubt that he's one cute, married chap. hehe!
Abhijeet Sawant, Indian Idol in Lafzon Mein. enjoy..

some may not understand as its in Hindi. like duh..
bu i do have the translation. as follows.

Lafzon mein keh naa sakoon
I can't say it in words
Bin keh bhi reh naa sakoon (repeat again)
But I can't just leave it unsaid
Nasha hi nasha raat din hai
Night and day are all full of cloudiness
Na pooncho yeh kaisa pyar hai
don't ask me what love this is
Lafzon mein keh naa sakoon
Bin keh bhi reh naa sakoon

Halki si barsaat mein, Pehli mulakat mein
in the light rain, that first meeting
Pehli baar mein
the first time
Dil ko mere le gayishe
she took my heart away
Chaahat ke iqraar mein
by acknowledging my love
Anjaana ghum de gayishe
she has my unknown sadness
Aayee jab saamne
when she came in front of me
Jaane kya woh kar gayi
i dont know what had she done
Paagal mujhko kar gayishe
making me go crazy
Jaaneman Jaanejaan
my love, love of my life

Na jaane kya baat hai
i dont know what this is
Lage ke din mein raat hai (repeat twice)
it seems as though theres night in the daytime
Nayee hai subah to nayee shaam
the morning and evening are both new

the 1st Malacca Trip on 16 Dec 07

2007-12-30T12:19:00.000+08:00

at Dataran Merdeka. everyone. not quite. missing out my handsome bro! ;)

i just like this pic being taken. hehe! it seems impromptu but still looks nice. thanks photographer. (cuzzie or broie?)

Welcome to Melaka.
Visiting the historical Melaka is the same as visiting Malaysia.
the direct translation.

the kind of ship used by Portugese during the attack to Malacca which happens decades ago.
quite a "wow" thing

the makcik petom and makcik bedah. being Jakun, the usual.

action cute? dont know lah eh.. but the flimsy thing that we're eating taste like eating "air". seriously. thats some piring2? hehe. quite nice thou. only selling in M'sia. i think.
continue our cam"taking" session. at Pagoh Stopover.
if only i can show u guys the different photos. silently forcing me to snap for her. hmpf! hehe!

to be continued....

raindrops outside.

2007-12-30T10:13:00.000+08:00

i've always wish for a house or rather a small home where i can sit comfortably beside the window. reading a book. hearing the rain come and go. seeing the butterflies fluttering to and fro with sunflowers bloom and mr sun smiling.
that will be nice, isn't it? sounds like some lines from Enid Blyton's book? perhaps. hehe!

its Saturday, people. and i'm at home. someone! bring me out. hehe! *sambal sardine in the kitchen* Yummy!
it was rather a busy and occupied weekends and weekdays for me. Supposedly,suppose to be enjoying a 2 weeks term break. but it seems that my visits to school, meeting up group members is always an endless one. 10am meeting. 12pm meeting. go home. squashed brain juice. yikes! thats why i underlined the supposedly..

15 mins later...

just finished eating and I'm "galloping" back to room. hehehe! its SKIPPING dear. oh wells, my best friend said mah...

went Malacca with cousin Raudha on Christmas day itself (anyway, I've sent the pictures dear. please check ur email inbox) it was a slow and easy trip. as promised by her dad. hehe! but the whole trip did tire everyone. pictures will be up soon.

looking at my mobile calendar, it just strucks me. "how fast time flies" and 20008 is just way toooo near. scary but true. hehe. March will be my graduating month and sooon all of us will be at crossroads and some even with no roads. hehe! perhaps, i will pursue teaching. i will but the whole facts of teachers going to IMH and the stressful environment do provide some hesitation for me to move on applying.

but, on the other hand... sometimes, when u just dont know what decision to make, there will be signs or perhaps directions to tell you on what u are supposed to do next. for me, i believe in that. and it comes from one of my classmate who is also one of my group member. out of a sudden, the topic on teachers and teaching pops up. "i think you should be a teacher. cause u look like one too"
is that considered a sign? i do think so. hehe! i just can't imagine myself sitting in a cubicle infront of datas and computer screen. just not me...

but my decision...still pending.

yeeehaaa!!!

2007-12-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

hehehe...alhamdulilah...
im back. physically, mentally and virtually. hee.

collected my baby today at his new "laptop day care centre" at Merchant Square which is located along the loooooong stretch of Merchant Road(very misleading road signs indeed!) hehe!

this is already the 2nd time where i had to painstakingly sent baby far,far away from me. hehe. please dont fail me again. NooNoooNoooooo... (drama mama abit) hee

special thanks to Ms Aiz for the company. buat selalu ye. hehe!

the 1st software downloaded....... Winpoet.
if no,then how to get connected.

the 2nd software....AntiVirus.
aiyoh.this is a must man. hee.

my laptop's crashed due to the error or some virus fatal attack to my operating system. celaka betul! oopps!

i thought i've cleaned up after regular updating of my AVG anti virus software. less did i expected that i had to constantly scan my laptop. zeng lah zanah. i know. ive learnt a valuable lesssonn. after the 2nd time loss of data. always have back up files!
yeenaaadaaa!!

wallpaper for now = orange,with the word Compaq. tell me something about it man. aaaahhh!!

at cuzzie's place, Sims Green

2007-12-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

raudha says " Helllo, Hi and Bubbye!"

laptop's crashed. will update real soooonnn..

miss me! =)

Immunity Breakdown

2007-12-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

i think i'm falling sick.
i think i really am..
*take one tissue and blow the nose*
shehshshsheheiiieheisisisiee (i dont know how the stuffing of tissue sounds)
oh wells. hehe!
acchhooooo.... alhamdulilah, excuse me.

moral of the story...
buy lots of Kleenex..
....
tissue box ler. hehe!
and....

do fall sick now..not later.
well,there'll be lots of icas and projects coming.
so,its better to fall sick now. hehe!

sha merepek. like always. =)

2007-12-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

hearing to "Ya Nabi Salamun Alaika" by Raihan
very soothing. feeling calm and at ease now.
good news everyone,i know. cause i'm feeling much peaceful now. after a full packed chaotic mondays to fridays.

will be starting tuition soon,hope so.
the sooner the better.
anyway, readers.. im actively looking for tuition assignments. well,ive been tutoring and teaching for the past 3 years.
for students or parents who are looking for tutors who can teach Maths for secondary levels and all subjects for primary levels, please tag me..
I do have the confidence and knowledge of teaching Maths for secondary levels and my much preferred level would be the secondary levels.but primary students are welcome! fees is negotiable. if any liaison, please tell me ya. THANKS!!

lovelies, things will be much better..
thats what i hope for..and i know thats what we hope for.
at the end of the day, its still back to the whirling questions..
is she able to compromise?
is she able to accept things as they are and response to issues maturely?
and is she able to apologize and be able to accept our apologies as well as assuring us that such incidents won't happen again..
i don't know. i do hope she gives a thorough thoughts to the attitude that she showed us the other day.
i really do hope she still remembered the apologetic and question-marked faces of us.
i really hope that she did some reflections about her past actions to A too..
I really hope that she can feel what we felt when she did that to us. and at least to be in our own shoes.
cause if u think u have feelings,i do have mine too.
if u think u can be frustrated and agitated with us, i can too. but, worse.
which i tried to avoid showing at any extent. because i still love you and i still love our friendship..
do understand our situation and we will understand your position.

im going to rest now.
"Ya Allah,tabahkanlah hati kami dan tunjukkanlah kami ke jalan yang benar.
Sesungguhnya, kau maha melihat dan maha mengetahui ketulusan hati nurani kami"
Amin...

can i have my attachment back?

2007-11-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

sigh and sigh and moan and groans...

hehe! thats my response and reactions after every announcements,projects meetings, tutors' tauntings and all the "ings"..
aiyoyoyo... looking at Shik's blog,it has reminded of all the What-I-Need-and-Must-DO!

submission of Public Relations report of 1500 words by next week...

submission of Resume and Cover Letter(HRM)...umm,when is that?
soon,soon...

an ongoing,nerve wrecking,brain squeezing module..Entrepreneurship. tell me something about it Yar!
seriously, i do have that male instincts in me..of killing my tutor(name cant be quote here to protect my own interest and to defend my grades) Wahahaha!

i miss the incoming calls,the praises, the shoutings and the complaints of the taxpayers..
i miss the IRAS people too... *sob*
but i so DONT miss the reporting time. 8.30am every morning.siapa boleh tahan?

school starts on 12th November and will be ending....i dont know when. hopefully soon!
*hari raya music background*
WEI! is Aidiladha coming soon?
i was hearing some jingles and promotions from the Bingla advertisement. hehee!!
eh,bimla,gimla or gila?!
hehhee!okok. ya, Eid is coming soon.so not aware lah.

that should be all. ive got loads of researches.and i think there's stagnant progress in my research. hehe!
take care NYPians.
dont blow your nose around and get all of us sick.
and please..refrain from scratching your scalp. aiyeee!!!

hehe! =)

2007-11-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

if u were given a chance to be back with me..
would u take the chance?
......
....
...
..
.

I would.

=)

Om Shanti Om

2007-11-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

Im SOOOooooOooOOoo going to watch!
Ahhh!! its like Shah Rukh ppl...my scandal.finally,doing a movie for me.oh my,oh my..

u guys wouldn't want to know what time is it now.
heee.i saw a short trailer at Woodlands MRT platform during the early evening today.
they're like showing "Aaja Nachle"(come and dance with me).
and guess who's acting. its like Madhuri Dixit. im not that fond of her but ok. the trailer looks nice thou. do check it out at YouTube.

the one that i want to present to u guys today is..(sigh!) the movie acted by my lovely 40 plus shah rukh. oh my,oh my..he just looks hot and gorgeous. seriously!
there's a song in that movie called "Deewangi,Deewangi" which features 31 Bollywood actors and actresses. but the main focus is still shah rukh.haizzzz...
i was so going gggoooogoooogaaagaaagaaa looking at him dancing. phew! *all smiles*
i SSOOOOO want to watch.maybe at the cinema,it would be nice.
the music background is the theme song of the movie. the synopsis is kinda of confusing but basically, the outline of the story is about reincarnation. i've almost hear to all the songs. the nice ones are "Deewangi,Deewangi" and "Main Agar Kahoon". there are some retro and modern concept in this movie. and the songs too do have some elements of the evergreen song.nice..

the direct link to the video watching of Deewangi,Deewangi is this --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWioIh_c_DA

happy viewing =))
and keep ur lips stay together.
i wouldnt want any drooolzzz..hehee!

;)

in reference to Aiz's blog

2007-11-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

umm,if u guys are trying to login to aiz's blog, its not possible as she has changed her blogging address due to some "unavoidable" issues.hhehehe!
somehow rather, its 2.17 am..i know. im just taking over the shift of the "burung hantu"(owl)
hee! will be having some AMP ceremony at Pasir Ris later(which is approx 7 hrs from now) and i've got to be there at 8 or 7 am?i dont know. mum will be waking me up. "kalau tak bangun,mak simbah kau dgn air" which directly means that "if u didnt wake up,im going to splash water at u" alamak! im like giving malay-english course.hehe!
supposed to be going to Sentosa on Sat. but sentosa and me? no link,no link. im not the "sentosa girl" hehe.sorry awak...
was chatting with Aiz on msn earlier on about some emotional issue involving uncertainties in life and etc. i find it interesting and thats why im bringing it to the public attention now.
ATTENTION.
is that the word that i mentioned earlier on? ya, and thats what i'm going to debate about. (ceh,debah!)
some of us might not realise but i personally think, attention or obtaining attention is a form of a human need in life. ppl might not be aware due to its intangibility but it sure exist everywhere. be it at ur workplace, school,house,friends or even ur life partners itself.
its even weirder how ppl can go all out to the extent of getting attention. they do have their own means.
i am not siding anyone but im just stating my own point of view. well. i do confess i do need attention. but im rather selective in my choices. i am not the loud or the vocal type in class who would go answering every qns asked by tutor.im obviously not the one trying to bootlick my lecturers and tutors. but i do know of several ppl who did that. but yet,look at where they are now. i wont give names but u know urself. =)
ppl might think that getting attention helps u in life in terms of popularity and favouritism. but no,thats a wrong perception. if ure getting the right attention for something that u usually do and u dont overdo it and u're being just urself,i called that a healthy attention.
this matter is not a prominent one in sec and pri schools but its getting much more obvious when u're in JCs and Polys where all ur actions and behaviours are monitored by ppl. im one of the "monitorer". hee! just to share my experience in Year 1 poly...
i do know of someone who's kinda of desperate to get attention until it seems so obvious. answers every lect's qns,laughs aloud to dumb lame jokes, being extra friendly to classmates and even to "act" clever during tutorials. clever? no,bimbo.i used to get all worked up as i feel that my lecturers are spending more time attending to her than concentrating on all of us. i would reach home and bragged about this with my sis. i still remembered what she said.
"just give the person some time.this is the person's peak period. sooner or later,you will realise that all her efforts in attracting attention from lecturers will be all wasted." i didnt take my sister's word seriously but soon enough,it was proven. im not happy or satisfied but rather pitiful. instead of ppl knowing u for being the positives, ppl are talking about all the otherwise.
why am i relating all this as one of my lovely,closest baybeh,Aiz,is rather feeling quite down and uncertains as she is feeling what i used to feel previously.
but after much consoling,i do hope it ease and lighten her thoughts slightly. like what i've told her, the essential things is that u are sincere in everything that u do. and how u achieve that? it is to be just yourself. dont try to act cute when ure not one. example only ah! heee!
(yang pentingnya,nawaitu dan niat kita mesti bersih dan ikhlas.insyallah,kita akan dapat merasa perhatian dari setiap individu) when you're being urself, ure being Natural.and thus u'll feel much more "free" and no restrictions to whatever you want to do.
oh my,am i giving a speech? i dont know.but like fun,like that. heee!
i always assures myself this.. eventhough nobody likes me or eventhough nobody gives me any attention,i m aware that im given much love and attention. from God of course.. insyallah dan alhamdulilah.

take care all! =))

im soo worried about my bulgy tummy. but do u think im bothered? Dont Bother!! heee!

i loveee my readers. pls give me your point of views k! =)

do i need to explain anything about her?

babe,u're not forgotten...
and kental seri! u lagi tak di forgotten. hhehehe!

sooner or later,truth will prevails.

2007-11-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

my feelings this moment?
depressed? no,thats too strong. i would say. confused or perhaps, downhearted?
i dont know. but what i certainly know is that im just plainly surprised on how someone that u loved and cared at one day can be just mean and despicable and loathsome the next day..
i do wonder.
how people can pray 5 times a day and go hajj, but lies and "fitnahs" can never be separated from their spoken words
i do wonder.
how people can be so gullible to believe every single words said by others. but never to ask them why such things were said.
i do wonder.
why cant people just let someone live in peace despite after hurting them so much.
i do wonder.
why among all the people that i wouldnt want to meet again,u came upon by chance.again.
but one thing that i wont wonder.
i believe that all things that have happened,happens for a reason. like ive said much much earlier in one of my blog entry, there's always a ray of hope for every problems that we encountered in life.
and i do hope that such rays will come by and shine upon me and my loved ones. insyallah.

ps:my dearest aiz,u've done a great deal for me. i wont forget that. and for the others namely Shikin,Xinyi,Joycelyn and maybe Seri(who dont know anything, hehe!) and of course to the lovely Mazlina,thanks for all ur advices,support and strengths that u've guys have given to me. much appreciate. =)) *seri,will update u the stories. soonnnn..insyallah*
for the time being, im running a campaign of "Free-Hands & Fingers Day" especially for my terrified ears.hehehee!

pictures are here.

2007-11-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

as promised a few days back..i think weeks (hehe!)
these are the pictures from this year's Eid Mubarak. Happy Viewing. =))
FIRST DAY
the 3 of us. may God grant us all the strength that we ever need and may we be blessed. insyallah. =))

the things we did...from covering our mouths (action cute).....to.....
kissssing of each other. dush! that's Raudha,my lovely cuzzie..

i think brother spoiled the pic by closing his eyes. one of the several nice pics taken. oh wells hehe!
SECOND DAY

pardon for the blurrish effect. it still looks nice,isn't it?

taken at Nenek Long's place at Marsiling.
taken at Uncle Fakir's place. Fajar Rd.
at Nenek Maibee's place at Thomson Rd.

trying "real" hard to get everyone faces IN. inclusive of my cramped face.hehe!

me and one more lovelie cuzzie, Yazmeen.using night mode. i loike!

OPEN HOUSE at RAUDHA'S CRIB

this should be Nasi Ambeng. menu for that day.i know,i know..dahsyat kan...hehe!

cuzzie with Bro with his all time over stressed nose.hehe!

the blurry Hari Raya atmosphere at Uncle Man's place
the left is "handsome boy". the left is handsome boy's brother. names? i dont know.heheh.something like Kiki? adorables. but "handosme boy" is the violent one. but Loves taking pictures. made everyone applaud after every snapshots of his pictures. keke!

me w Aunty Masturah's son, Nabil

the cuzzies from all sides. =))

excuse me cuzz,im still awaiting for the photos. hehe!
got loads of Raya photos. phew!

still thinking

2007-11-01T13:11:00.000+08:00

ok..what shall i update on my blog today?
thats the whole issue now. haiz.
today is like my "off" day from tuitions. final papers for two of my students. one which is having Science paper today and another one which is sitting for English today. Grrrr.... im scared for them.truly,i am. i really hope they won't disappoint me thou. insyallah.
i was quite pleased and grateful as i've managed to actually get back in contact with someone whom i've lost contact for a very long time. and out of the blue (or green,hehe!), a forward email had actually "re"connect us back. alhamdulilah. i'm happy to know that some people like this are meant to be contacted. ok,whatever am i saying..hehe!
working at IRAS has always been the same but the callers are different. atleast if we dont get a chance to meet the persons that we talked to, we can still get a chance to hear their sexay voices. wahaha! especially the British and the Canadians.u should hear how they pronounce my name. its like "sha"zanah.its like shazanah..in thick pure english accent. *sigh*
talking about my name.
i have a few names thats closely associated with my "actual" name and is specially pick and chosen by my taxpayers.
"can i know who am i speaking to?"
"i'm Shazanah, its S,H,A,Z,A,N(with much emphasis),A,H"
"oh, its shEazanah."
"no,mam.its shAzanah."
"aiyah,nvm lah,still the same"
Huh?still the same? why not from lee,i change it to loa or loo..isnt that the same also.
Grrr..to just name a few,my chosen names are shazaMah, sUzanna, susan and lastly..Shahidah. huh? watever lah. hehe!
its fun working. atleat u know u made someone happy by lessening the amount of tax that they have to pay at the end of the day.hehe!
especially if those ppl who called to ask the tax balance and it happened that they dont owe us anything...Wah! that ppl super happy. hehe!
one day also,i will be the person at the other line of the phone. and i hope i have nice officers to attend to me..like i used to be too..ceh.

if uve seen my 1st sentence,ive said.i dont know what to write for today's entry. but i did.
happy reading peepZ! =))

updated entry =)

2007-10-24T14:52:00.000+08:00

i seriously and urgently need to update my blog soon. i know that. wahaha!
lots of events and lots of activities circling around me. and of course,lots of updates.
pending updates
1)Aiz's Birthday Outing
2)Ngee Ann's students Graduating day at IRAS
3)Hari Raya outing.

Oh ya!! wishing every Muslim bloggers and readers a joyous EID MUBARAK. hope i'm not too late to wish.hehe! hope wveryone had a great get together thing with their family and friends..(while reading this, let's imagine that there's a Raya song in the background) sesuci lebaran from siti nurhaliza? heheh! i loike..

umm,is there anymore updates? oh ya, adding on to the numbering..
4) Seri's Departure(where most of the pics comes from those NOT departing) hehe!
5)IRAS outing to break fast at Al ZamZam.

*sigh*
having a blog..makes me feel like its an obligation and responsibility for me to update readers on my daily happenings in life. is that so? i do think so..hehe! but nvm,if i've the time,i will update.God Willing.

so,in all ive 5 updates and post of pictures that's still in the process..
dush! i'll end till here. i really need some rest from all the telephone calls and the waking up in the morning. oh my!

:)

Nancy Ajram-Elli Kan

2007-10-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

That which was...
if u want to know what am i hearing to every morning..
there u go..

the translations are as such..

That which was before you
When you weren't beside me
I wasn't truly living
And that which will be after you
If you weren't beside meI hope I die first

You know what your love is doing to me
I've experience a world more beautiful than in my dreams
I don't even know if I was born today
Or if I ever lived before you why I was born

The most beautiful thing in my life happened
When you came and said that you love me

I know just what ties me to you
Something bigger than passion pulled me to you
I don't even know if I was born today
Or if I ever lived before you why I was born

im so hoping for such guys who would chase after u here and there.
i wish.
someone..chase me!
heheheeh..
but must be cute also
suddenly,apek chase me.wahhhhh!!

from 4 down to just the 2 of us

2007-10-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

i truly appreciate the outing i had with my laughing cum deejay cum nuisance partner.
hahaha! u guys should have been with us. we almost talked about everything.
from the logical things to the nonsense things.
from the workload at work to the jerkful grp of trying-very-hard-to-be-hiphoppers at suntec city.
aiyoh.they looked more like grasshoppers hopping with the i-dont-know-what-the-deejay-is talking guy. its just like he's putting the mike right at his mouth which goes...*muffles,muffles,nonsense*
hehehe!
thanks aiz. below will the picture we took. the normal mode,the flash mode,the timer mode and finally the night mode. wah,the night mode shiok.makes u smile for atleast 55 secs. dush!
i know this entry is quite a not-so-updated one. well,just cant help it. house in a mess with all the cleanings that's due in a week's time.wahaha

it all starts from the dinner we had at Burger King,Suntec City

this is where the nonsensical,musical, "funnical" part of us were exposed. wahaha! aiz's hands were trembling thou. hehehehhehheeh! im sorry aiz.i just have to comment on that. weeee!!

now,the "feeling" part came about. using night mode.nice effect right?all thanks to Mr Olympus.
he just comes handy at times.at all times i mean. =)

i didnt know and im sooo not aware that S'pore had such a nice view. but they also had the taking advantage view.well, we had to also view something-which-should-not-be-viewed when we went to the sky garden at Suntec. couple in the midst of the bushes. tsk,tsk,tsk.

yg ini..Cik Aiz kita nak 'step' feeling.hehehe. emo lah katakan. but i really like the back view.
thats the parkview square building.

back to both of us. must be wondering how we got this? all thanks to the 12 sec Mr Timer.
just in time just for the both of us. snappidie snappy shotties!!

this is not the works of Mr Timer. this is the work of a helpful Mr Tourist. hehehe!
well, he was the one who approached first. requested me to take a pic for him. 3 times u know. must charge already. we also feeling tourists. i lovee the lightings of the Fullerton and S'pore River. weeee!!

this is IN Fullerton Hotel peeps. oh my... i became MS JAKUN(kaypoh) hehehe.
i thought i did locked the cubicle door. but it was accidentally opened by the cleaner. oh my.
*embarrassed* i was not doing anything thou.just surveying.hehe!

by the Koi fishes. these Fullerton people are just so not fair. the charge high rates for tourists to stay in but they can't even feed their Koi Fishes properly. semua mcm dtg dari rumah tumpangan. tak cukup makan.wahaha!u just had to put your fingers in the water, and they'll comeswimming towards u. i want to go on strike. for the FISHES! i ate them but i want them to be treated well too. this is KOI. i dont eat those. *shakes head*

well,i can't afford to stay at that hotel BUT i do afford to take picture with the chairs thou. weee!!!

why these pic was taken was because.....
i like the reflections. i took first then when makcik aiz saw the beautiful effect it gave,
"sha,i pun nak ambil lah"(sha,i also want to pose lah)
dush..and there u have it. the beautiful girl(with no plural) there.
hehehe.just kidding. ;)
*humming to Kal Ho Naa Ho*
got reminded of my bf....

S....

Shah Rukh Khan ler. heheheh!

after a long time

2007-09-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

just finished sending aiz all the pictures for the esplanade outing which in the end of the day.. only both of us attended the outing.(sori for the late sent) i just have no time.hope u understand.haha! phew! i really hope there's a site where i can really send 100MB of pictures in one go. mcm fun gitu. gegege.

will be meeting the girls on tues. the usual and the unusual ones. hehe!
namely,
Zee
Minah(Liyi)
Joycelyn
Xinyi and those who shan't be named.
gege!

will be sending the chief of the kentalies federation to Airport. going to India. to join forces with other kentalies. hehe!
no lah, for attachment purposes. all the best dear.
please get for me some sweets, cloth and of course earrings.. Yummy!
if u want a list,i can prepare it for u.willingly.
haha.
i hope u have a safe journey to and fro. take care seri.we'll miss u. =)

will be bringing camera. snap,snap,snap.wee!! thats the best part of kentalie girlie outing. =))
work has never been inspiring and not-tiring for me.
liasing with TaxPayers(TP) along with having some people around which might just irritates u once in a while.
"ada ke patut TP call pastu mengamuk2 bilang kenapa dia kena bayar banyak lah,itulah,inilah.
ewah,ewah..macam lah aku pula yg decide tax rates. ish,ish..orang macam gini kena bomb, bagus juga."
hehe! i was saying....nothing.
geez.just complaining. but so far,ive not experienced any very hardcore cases before.
one of my colleague has to experience some bloody arrogant TP before and shockingly, there's a TP who poured all her heart out to my colleague,Ed.hehehe.i mean she really cried. alamak. how to handle man. maybe they should have a department for counselling.
merepek lah zanah.(i know)
hehe!
other than that everyday drama which i have to attend to everyday, there are some few TP who are super duper nice. they just make your day. one which i can clearly remember is when a particular chinese male TP who did late filing and had to do via e filing. he wanted me to assist him in the whole process. well,it sounds easy but not so. all thanks for the big slides printed by our supervisors. usually,no appreciation for these notes were done during the training. now,with the real life situation, i truly need my notes everytime some weird issue were brought up by TP.
back to the story of the nice TP, he kept on apologising when asking me to hold on due to all the loadings time of the Internet and stuff. i was on the line with him for almost close to one hour. haiz.just dont feel like putting down the phone of him. i mean once u knew that u had done some errors,just a basic 'sorry' is enough to make someone's day meaningful.instead,some people being some arrogant freak,know that they had done some mistakes, can still try so hard to fight all the way and argue with u. oh wells,humans.

i was alsoo like that too. hehe!
i might not be replying to tags that was tagged on my tagboards.
very busy.just no time. seriously.
the only thing that u want to do upon reaching home is just to
ZzzZZzzZZZzzZzz
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Ikea Trip

2007-09-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

went out with bestie a few weeks ago on my 1st trip to Ikea Tampines.
weee.. here's the pictures..

It all ends up with food..
what can i say.thats the cheapest item at Ikea.
going for a $1..
jolly goooooddddyyy food!!
=)

do enjoy your Boredom..while you can

2007-09-03T17:02:00.000+08:00

well,well,well....
dedicating to those who are still awaiting their results to go OIPP (Overseas Industrial Placement Programme), do ENJOY your boredom now... oh my, life has never been tiring when u started working. (For Seri, happy reliefing and happy designing online.atleast,im happy for my ears) Hohohoo!
For me, I've felt it. all tuition schedule and meet-the-friends session, all aside.
now, IRAS is by my side.
for those who are not aware of my attachment,i'm being placed at Inland Revenue Authority of Singapore and the building called Revenue House is directly located opposite of Novena Square.
sounds glam? i know,i know. but the working hours. i want to come lateeee...
(atleast i'm allowed in Lectures)
my reporting time is 8.30 till 5 from Mon to Thurs and 8.30 to 4.30 on Friday.
And....I'm working on Saturday. oooff!
for the benefit of those who dont know what's the functionality of IRAS, it is a statutory board under the government which handles all Taxation stuff. Right from GST to Corporate Tax to our Income Tax.wow! i know. For those who are not employed, you guys might not be aware of this things but once when u started earning, you will have to do some declaration on your income and other details. from there, some tax will be imposed and you will have to pay.
Don't complain people. everything is from Tax. like how the trainer used to tell the attachment students. even we are owing to the bus stops that we stand everyday. right from our education to infrastructure, all this exist due to the tax that we paid. atleast we do benefit from all this. its just that we don't realize. Humans. take things for granted. so,now when u look at the bridge, smile and say..."1% of you comes from my money"
Haahhahaohohohoh!! =)

why mugging?

2007-08-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

exactly 9 days after my previous entry.
and an exactly 2 days for my 1st paper which is Quality Management.
do u guys know that one aspect of this module is to identify and learn abt the gurus?
Quality Gurus to be exact.
Yoga Guru.
Guru,Cikgu,Teacher. I've heard of.
but this one?aiyoh. very the peculiar.
learn QM? how to manage quality...when Ban Mian at Causeway Point Banquet is still different at Raffles Hospital. (umm,there's no link.i know)
hehe! sometimes i find that this theoretical modules are too brief.too theory based.its not an indepth situation but i think that should be fine for now.
one more module is Customer Behaviour.
customer wants to behave like that, let them be lah. must learn and identify their attitudes.
oh yes,talking about attitudes..
it equates to A+B+C. which is action,behaviour and cognitve/connitive? thats defined in Customer Behaviour,for your general info. +)

talking about studying.
just to widen my generalized thoughts..
hmm, why is it called Mugging?
wat is so mugging about studying?(sounds more like Muggles, thou)
mug=study?
is it because olden people drink only from mugs when they study?
or do people face now look like a mug when they study? =)) (i hope mine's not)
instead of mugging, why not pen-ning, book-king or even calculator-ing.. that'll be nice.
am i twaddling? hope not. i think i am. oh wells.
this is confusing..
hehe!

i'll continue my mugging tomorrow. opps! i mean pencil-ling.
keke.

am i complaining?no,i did not!

i dont use mugs,i use cups.can it be cuppping please??

somebody,enlighten me..hehe!

Quality Management Presentation

2007-08-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i cant really recall the date and day of this presentation.
i usually lost track of the timings. lucky me, ms nurai is always there to keep me in track.
gege!
anyway,these are the photos during when each of us presented.
my group conprises of the beautiful lady (of course, me) hehe
vina, celina and rain. (grins)

this has got to be one of my lovelies.
Name? Nurai... no lah,its Aiz. (i just got a bad feeling that i'm going to "get it" on Mon)

another candidate? SHIKIN!! or better known as Shiks.
got quite a style u know.. sori gal,i just have got to put this photo of yours.hehe!

and this is....xinyi.. just beware during her sore throats days..
Voldemort's Sister!! beware muggles..she dont curse but her voice. sounds just like the dark lord's sister. (for your info, voldemort dont have a sister) nvm..one detected in NYP premises. Ahhh!!

OhoHoo! go relax of the face veins dear! hehe.. this is one of the 'kentalies'. hehe. anyway, she's better known as Seri or Radhiah or both. =) she has this particular dangerous fetish with my ears and neck.oh my..dont misjudge those hands people. she's always seen to be liasing with ms nurai above! hoHoHoooo...

TADaAaAAAAaaaa!!! this is our special guest of honour.. Sha!! haha.thanks aiz for this cramp-face shot. hehe! i was doing on Thomson Medical Centre where every group had to choose a particular company and assess the company's management in terms of the awards attained and so on..

us being the usuals... all smiles!!

will make do anywhere.. even the TOILET! =))

i just have no comments.dont worry..nothing detected. no comments,no comment!

me and you-know-who's sister. we have come to common terms.. dont worry.harry potter is not involved. he's just too cute to be killed.don't u think so?

to summarise, they're my military mates. always ready with a grenade. and especially their hands. just have got to aim somewhere below my head, neck! ahhh!! there goes my little hairs. go poppping unnecessarily. ;)

actually,basically,seriously... =)

2007-08-05T18:45:00.000+08:00

finally, (heaved a heavy sigh of relief)
haha! why the title? maybe my lovelies in school would be able to answer.
"basically, the fishes that our company will export..."
"actually, Africa is facing some..."

i seriously think we need a B.R.E.A.K
heee. anyway,those repetitive words were used by one of the group during their International Biz presentation. quite cute thou.hehe! well, we did quite kena bombard. by those-who-should-never-be-named.
hehehe! im getting the Harry Potter syndrome.
have watched twice thou. thinking of watching the third time.
hmm.. need to absorb the whole story.

just like how Harry's scar is burning, my gums are aching tooo..
not because of voldermort but more likely because of the 'wisdom tooth'. oh my.. i really have got to visit the Dental Centre soon. its giving some kind of effects which i dont wish to elaborate.
oh wells,set that aside. will go after exams. insyallah.

did i mention something about exams. yes,fellow readers. we,the doomed NYPians, specifically the third years are going to sit for our semestral exams in a 2 or 3 weeks' time with the first paper being Quality Management. (how the heck do u manage quality?)
ask mr boo..he would be more than delighted to express his mumbling,not-so-enthusiastic voice about the 3 prominent Gurus-Crosby,Deming and some weird guy with a funny name who starts talking about some funny Quality Philosophies... (shakes head vigorously)
oh my..why can't it be some Transfiguration class or perhaps military lessons with the practical aid of imaginary grenades,bombs and shotguns. *smirks* seri would love this, wouldnt u kental...geehehe.
doakan for me ye.. i mean the exams. =)
pictures will be up ahead. ya!! ive got to relate the experience i had at Terengganu. later then..
*my ears are in safe mode...for the next few hours,oh my!*

fascinated?

2007-07-13T18:26:00.000+08:00

were u "aaaAAAaaaaaaAAaWWwwwwwWing?"
i was.always. the fantastic sceneries do captures the artistic heart of mine.hehe.
this is at Perhentian Island near Terengganu.and to my ultimate discovery, the islands here
are facing the South China Sea. i think that answers the crystal blue,i-can-so-see-things-inside-the-water kinda of thing.hehe.
and this is just the trailers.not yet the movie.we took over 428 photos for 4 days.wow. im just amazed by my (ummm,what should i address it as?talents or capabilities?) hehe!
i've yet to share my relaxed experience there along with the images.
so,dont go anywhere.stay tuned.

Abang Khairul's Engagement

2007-07-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

well, i have to admit that i was quite packed and busy with my school and the tuition stuffs.i dont complain,no regrets thou but my physical condition is giving the signals to my tiredness.hehe! apart from all that, there were a quite few memorable moments that i had.right from the Terengganu trip,my cousin's wedding right to my cousin's engagement.hee.. therefore,this entry was dedicated to a dear cousin of mine..the pictures.
me,mum,sister and my cousin's fiancee.name? hmm..
the "hantaran" from our side.
the family.oh my,i just love them... =))
my sister,me and Kak Raudha
my lovely cuzzie.Yazmeen Begum.
i misss u guys..
=))

Nancy Ajram =))

2007-06-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

this is one of the latest songs from my favourite Lebanese singer, Nancy Ajram.
just a short video. im just mesmerized by her flawless beauty, the rhythm and beat of the song and of course the meaning. all thanks to the translation.

Enjoy. hope i didnt bore u guys with my "foreign interest"
heeee..

Kak Nazreen's Solemnisation

2007-06-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

pictures time!! all pictures during kak reen's solemnisation ceremony at her place,Fajar.
it was Tuesday. 05/06/07. why tuesday? maybe the date pattern will giv u an idea

a few mins before.kak naz with all the 'gubahan'(gifts that will be exchange by both families)
why this pic is shaky?well, i just told my two lovely cousins that im perspiring.specifically the hugging area,my armpit.hahahahaha
this is only the desserts. ONLY.
the Girl
the Guy

Gifts from Guy's

Gifts from the Girl's
the rising tensions and anticipation from all the excited photographers and guests.

the moments everyone awaits for. can u imagine how cramped and 'air-sharing' the room can be?i had to use my professional photographic skills along with my physical attributes to outstretched myself vertically to get these snapshots. dont underestimate my capabilities.hehe!
i just envy myself. =)
now, the REAL dishes.. yeehaa!
that peace was for my camera actually.oh wells.
Introducing,the new family member of Salim's family, Abg Raihan. friendly,comical guy.

i feel much complete with them despite the burning sensation and the intense warmth,we still display that much tired SMILEZ.. love u guys.

destined to be sisters as we are. we do display like one too. Via.. CAMWHORING. its nice thou. hehe!

the one almost-complete Salim's family

may the Almighty bless their wedding,their future,their life.
Amin.
may the Almighty bless the families of Salim's. may this happiness
be continued throughout our journey on the face of the Earth. may all my readers receive
the blessings too.
Amin.
Amin.
Amin.

hey,i'm back.

2007-06-15T07:04:00.000+08:00

heylooooOOOoooOO lovely readers.
my apologies for the un-constant post updates.
i was away for 4 days, 3 nights to Terengganu.
specifically to Pulau Perhentian.
cool place peeps. i highly recommend everyone to go. wee!!
u just feel as if u're out of the whole world entirely. believe me. well, pictures?
not too soon. want to create suspense 1st.haha!
anyway,im back safely. Alhamdulilah. (despite the life-wrecking,bumping boat rides and the crazy swerves of bus driver) i still stand stall,one piece but like an Indian lady.
boohoo.. i was tanned. dark leh.
hee. my mum commented "macam anak mamak" like daughter of an Indian. well,i am. not directly Indian but Pakistan so as to say. im proud of it. but the latest skin color i have now? No,No...hee. will tell u guys more about the things that i did there in my next entry along with the postcard looked-alike photos. haha. i took the shots ok. very gorgeous. like the person. hehe.
sorry,i know i very the 'feeling' but can't help it. hehe. just finished my project discussion. Quality Management done!!! and Customer Behaviour. i really multi task. *good Shazanah* hehe. but oh wells, back to the hustle bustle life of being a undergrad diploma student in Singapore.

i almost thought that i was a island woman there.
i swear. hehe! =))

2007-06-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

alhamdulilah,alhamdulilah..
thats all i can utter right now.
i'm all than happy to retrieve back my all fresh baby from HP customer care with Aiz just now.
Thanks AIZ..for the shoulder that u borrowed and for the reminder of closing my beautiful mouth when im sleeping in bus 51. kekekee..
not forgetting to kental seri for the ever changing minds of the destination.
to Shikin who is constantly doing 'selective listening' and filtration.(umm...)
and to Xinyi who has always be by my side.(are u?im confused.anyway, thanks for the lending)
hehe! and obviously my laughing Thanks to MR Dan, the man. i mean danial for 'teleporting' all of us safely in one piece(despite of the misai motorcyclist) to Jurong East. truly appreciate guys.
thanks once again. =))

aunty saini and uncle david were here..AGAIN. how great can this 2 weeks be?
oh wells, accompanied them to Jurong Pt,ate there. BUT, instead of the eater choosing the dish, the payer chooses the meals. oooff!! her definition of 'belanja' *shakes head*
and i saw!!! SARAH!!! weeeEEEEeeEE.. i didnt even know she was a few inches away when my bro told me. hehe.. lurve the long hair. sorrry for the short conversation. hehe. didnt get to meet Halimah at Esprit. will try to pop up again at JP. insyallah.. would love to bump with u again. =))

well,will get back again. have to complete the household chores. sigh!

the 50th post

2007-05-26T06:09:00.000+08:00

HAppy 50th Blog post anNiversarYy..
umm,ok! hee.. this is my 50th post. wow.how time flies.hehe! =))
still in contact centre class. *dreading*
to all my lovely students of Sembawang Sec, please send me ur lovely photos with me.
especially 1A1. send ur photos to either zanah88@hotmail.com or shazanahrahman@gmail.com
these are special memories and i want ot post it at my blog.
anyway,congrats to those who have passed ur exams and have scored well.
for the others,please dont despair. try again. failure of an exam is not a failure of every exams. remember that. =)

"MAny of life's failures are people who didn't realise how close they were to SUCCESS when
they give up"
just a small quote from me :)

HP has not called me yet. baby still at there. aiyoh,very worried leh.hehe!

up close,personal

2007-05-23T03:19:00.000+08:00

WEEE!! i'm going to die soon...
AHHH!! im shouting.(imagine that i'm screaming ppl)
he 'provoked' me..with his charms.
haiz.*looking at him again*
pity seri and the others. u guys should have been here a bitttt longer. wahaha! and he's applying for some financial assistance.i can see.thats how close i am.. weee.. stop it sha.
and wanna know something.
he TALK to us! actually to aiz lah.the dialogue:
Him: "Can I take the chair?"
Aiz: "Ya.."
Him: "The chair shaky.. (giggles)" ppl,he giggled. in my presence! haiz contd..
Aiz: "(smile n giggle TOO) Emm... Ya.."

and the whole dialogue session was written by aiz. maybe he mistook her for some chair attendant.hehe. ok.let me see what he's doing.
i think he's scratching,staring at the screen,visualising my beauutiful face. wahaha.
he's my eye,nose,face cotton candy floss. not my mouth. coz i dont think he can 'tahan' wahaha!

Announcement
a brown cockroach was seen loitering at Sembawang MRT Platform.beware!
i happened to be the only witness to the unhygienic action. it was 'happily' crawling its way when i thought its going to pass by this middle age guy. but no ppl. instead of crawling ahead,it crawls up! eugh!!! and it stays at that brown's pants all the way. i moved two doors away from that man.just because i was wearing brownie today.oh wells, my heartfelt sympathy goes out to the commuters around that guy. all the best mr bown pants. haha!

back to reporting.baby still in childcare.
(a bloody woman stands so near,dont she know that i'm around? must teach her lesson)
staring at that woman
ummm..

the not-so-wonderful week

2007-05-19T06:42:00.000+08:00

in Contact Centre Tutorial.
was quite a happening week for me.
from sending my laptop to some 'ulu' alexandra technopark to the burst of my eye blood vessels
*seri and aiz laughing away* i knew it. especially aiz. like seronok like that right. hehe.
my baby lappie is at the childcare centre.might be collecting him next week. my both eyes giving me prob. that time my wisdom tooth. now my eyes. AH!! hehe. but still maintaining. hehe.
lovely cuzzy going umrah this Sat.all the best love. gonna mish her. hehe =)
eyes straining already. ouch! bloody 8 mins consultation with a pathetic bottle of eye drop.
cost me 22 Bucks. ooofff!
hope my eyes will recover.

Damn

2007-05-03T06:10:00.000+08:00

my laptop is doing it again. that time was my Internet now my lappie.
alahai.. i did not update much as my lappie's down.tried to call the customer service officer but with their heavy american accent,i dont think i can go far to understand what they expect me to do.hehe! will try again. just finished teaching. quite a chaotic day but FUN! i'm gonna miss all my students,i swear! haiz.. i'm going back now though.
Poly guys, our PEM is Ms Angela Cheng ah? confirm plus 'chop' ah? hehe!
"mcm ku kenal perkataan itu,tapi di mana ya." hehe!
miss my poly frens too.i won't be coming on Thurs and Fri.
I'm going to National Dental Centre on Friday for my stiches and on Thurs, i still have relief teaching. hehe! will see u guys next week.
lots of luv...

inside-outs of a Teachers' Room

2007-04-26T04:58:00.000+08:00

my warmest regards to those reading my blog.
like what ive wrote in my previous entries, was life being a teacher at a Secondary School.
now,im going to tell u abit about life being a gossip listener in a staff room.haha! =)
was a fun-filled experience. u've got a feast. a whole chunks of students and even staff gossips. wee! even the plugs,dividers have ears hor..
pause.
Ms Loh,my favourite Science co-teacher.always complaining about the NTs.she's in the late 40s and obviously,its a bit hard for her having to handle the (u fill in yourself).
and she's complaining.not really complain but more to sharing the whole "wonderful" and challenging experience. Funny lah she.hehe.
getting back to the main topic. i was in school till 5.30pm.having to mark all their Science practical books and determining their marks for the CA.i'm trying to make today to be a short day.i really hope. im so tired.my table very messy but i don't care. hehe.later can clear..
was gossiping mainly about everything. from students to relationships to tupperwares.umm,haha! got to hear but not to say anything.keke!
"u know that student with the name (blah,blah) was so rude"
"your students were punished by the DM just now"
"(blah,blah) was found to 'pon' from school today and was caught by the DM"
like ya,oh my god..all this..amidst of the buzyness here, these discussions were among the popular ones.haha! anyway,i'm in a hurry so not much to say.meeting the girls later. weee!! see all. =))

give it to me.Yeah.

2007-04-24T05:42:00.000+08:00

Haha. was obviously hearing that song. quite a catchy beat,something that you would look for after a hectic,rowdy class. just finished my teaching. phew! quite a tiring day. the class seems to be in a very active mood today. monday greens perhaps? haha!

just received a call from one of my tuition's parent and told me something very astounding.
the son,akmal, scored full marks for Science. weee!! how bless can an educator be than hearing all this and knowing that all your efforts paid off. im truly grateful. for those students out there (including me) please study hard and do well for your exams. eventhough this advice seems mundane but it's essential for your future. because at the end of the day,its not me,not your parents but u,yourself that's going to make a difference.do well,get a good job that might satisfy your desires in the future. i'm just truly blessed to get a well proper education and to do the things that i truly enjoy like of course, Teaching. alhamdulilah.
Bless,bless..

passionate

2007-04-21T04:21:00.000+08:00

just finished after a hectic day at Sembawang Sec. well,today is my second day and the students are..oh wells, much better than the primary schoolers.teachers here are equally friendly.guess what?
i was given a seat..next...to a.....Malay....Male teacher.
weee!! but he like super kanchiong like that. very busy.makes me feel busy too.
my form class are superb.they are the best well behaved cohort in Normal Academic stream. just by a day,ive got a sweet card from one of the students. sweet right. hehe. see lah,who the teacher.keke. students here are ok despite the rumours about the juvenile rate fro this school. generally,well. no worries. =)i wear Baju Kurung today. "sweet lah ms zanah" me?smile only. hehe.happy babe! hehe
will be going for my 3rd time postponed dental appointment at NDC later.. scared lah.
will be writing again soon. those blogs that i dont tag,its not that i dont want. but im quite busy for these past few days. will read up your blogs soon.
mushy kisses.=)

got to make it fast

2007-04-16T15:01:00.000+08:00

weee. thanks to ICELL.im connected.
virtually.hehe. wont be a long entry. just for my goody nosy readers who love to poke around people's blogs. haha. i cant write that very long too. my batt running loww.. eeee! next time i bring one whole battery and sit at the library for hours. free connection babe.
hehe
well,im doing fine. never been better. occupying myself with 3 tuition assignments and relief teaching and workin for Starhub telemarketeer. phew! tiring. but coool. just finished reliefing at the same school just now, Northview Primary. was taking over P6. i tell u. they all are the full time rascals. very super duper active. like got worm up their ass. cannot sit down. luckily today only. haha.
will be going to National Dental Centre for my Wisdom Tooth consultation. i really hope the operation wont be that painful.haiz.. hoping that the doctor is cute too. *wink*
hehe. thats all then. will update more.
love alls!

Images

2007-03-31T08:50:00.000+08:00

me and my bro.

me and Yazmeen,all time favourite cousin

the beautiful sunset at Bedok

quite a panoramic view isn't it?
Images of Esplanade Outing

and...of course MEE!!

End of BSU

2007-03-31T08:17:00.000+08:00

finally,again..
BSU has ended. Yay,Yeah,Yay,Yay...
*balloons popping, chattering voices and smiles and smirks*
watever sha. haha. this is the moment that i have awaited for.well, to be frank. i dont know why i felt much happier to finish this stopover.my previous stopover was CSC and it was a fun-filled,unforgettable experience. but BSU,it was okay.nothing special.my relationship with my team mates were doing great.no grudges or watsoever but somehow rather,something is amiss. bonding? or perhaps,my perception? well, was SOoo looking forward for this day. i'm just counting my days to the end of school.i just want to get that cert and walk off to find some job that would really suits me. oh wells,later for that.Instead of establishing closer relationships with my team mates, my newly found close friends are from different team instead.hehe. u guys know who u are. Readers,if u want clues,u guys can kindly scroll down my tagboard and take a look at my taggies' name. U will know.hehe! Xinyi(aka pikachu,kukumalu), Annice,Liyi,Seri,Nurai(of course) and Jaclyn. eventhough seri and xinyi are my classmates,we weren't close but thanks to BSU, i got the opportunity to know them better.same goes with annice and my president of Mina Federation,LiYi. hehe. and of course to Nurai.and Jaclyn. *wink* bless,bless.
but to all my BSU team 4 mates, i truly love u guys. Thanks for all the help and assistance given. to Jenelle,Syidah,Priscila,Kah siong and to Ee Phor. thank you all again. it was sure an experience to work with u guys with all the 'kecohness' and the high rising tension.hehe.
As for now, i have a one month break and I can't promise u guys for any updates cause of my Internet connections. understand,understood.hehe.
well,let me talk abit about our Esplanade outing yesterday. went City Hall with seri,Liyi and xinyi and meet up aiz half way at Toa Payoh to redeem their Mrs Fields Vouchers at Raffles City Shopping Centre.walked to Marina Square,ate at Long John,talked about my friend,zaki(what else) and headed down to Esplanade,took lots of pictures as usual.haha. (pics yet to be given by Kukumalu) hehe! lastly,to Mrs Fields. fun seh. u guys should be there too.ummm,ok. haha! went out of school at 12.30,reach back at 5.06pm. like my owned school like that. hehe!
thinking..what else to write. oh yesh! i've send out mass emails to secondary schools about my relief teaching. hope there will be some positive response on Monday morning. really hoping. hehe.
supposed to be working later at the usual place but got other plan. Mummy bringing me to a religious talk at Msjd Omar Kassim. must tell something. the religious teacher is cute hor. hehe. ok what,but he married lah. all i like, all attached. like Eugene Pang.eh,he's not gay ok. i find him charming.weee! guys,if u all want to attract me,just wear formal with that striped shirt and black pants.weee..i loike. dush! just joking.
can't wait for the Confidential Outing. wink.

been thinking about u lately.very much.
been crying about u suddenly.much.
only a pinch of hope left. those are still hopes, right?

VODKAYONS! please dont assume i've forgotten about you guys.u guys are my first loves.
eh,i change number.hehe. again,i know. its 92279547. its also temporary. heee. hope the IPP is doing great for you all. all the best guys. do keep in touch and hold on there.

seri,aiz and all of the Mina Federation members,please beep me if there's any updates or changes or whatsoever. miss u all.

huge hugs,slurpy kisses and warmth for all...

Relief Teaching

2007-03-28T05:05:00.000+08:00

Finally.. alhamdulilah
been always looking forward to try out this profession.called almost all the neighbourhood Primary schools on Mon morning. can u believe it? i woke up at 6.30am dudes. i dont think i woke up that early if i'm going to school.Haha!
20/03,Tuesday
Received a call from NorthView Primary. "Hi,Ms Shazanah. i'm calling from Northview Pri.Do u think u can come today for relief teaching?"
*yawn* "Huh?Of course." *big smiles*
i just dont know what had come over me but the next thing i realised,i was already walking confidently into the school compound.haha! my daily timetable?
7.45am-8.15am 2Hope(Drama)
8.15am-8.45am 1Kindness(Drama)
8.45am-9.45am 2Kindness(Maths)
9.45am-10.45am Break
10.45am-11.15am 1Hope(Drama)
11.15am-11.45am 2Patience(Drama)
11.45am-12.15pm 6Patience(English)
12.15pm=12.45pm 5Hope(Maths)
Its not that bad though.i get to teach variety of levels with all sorts of subject. but drama?want to teach what for drama? haha! Free Period lah.
1st Day was a disaster. i sound more like a zoo keeper than a school teacher. the kids are seriously 100% plus 'chop' RASCALS.haha. i swear. they would jump,scream,yell and talk all at the same time. its not only 1 or 2 or 3 students but 30 zoo animals cum students. alamak.headache seh. they can be cute,funny,irritating and mischievious at the same time. kids.what can i say? they have short attention lif span.only 5 secondS? if i were to scold one group,the group on my left will start talking.then if i scold the group,the 1st group will start talking. tell me citizens. how can i ever get these kids attention? my last resort. took the wooden ruler at the whiteboard which has lots of purposes,i supposed. bang it against the whiteboard.and shout. "2 Trust! i'm talking to all of you right? look at the front now.i give u 10 seconds. 10,9,8..."
and that's my daily routine,ladis and gentlemen.hehe!

Classes from P2 Kindness and P1 Hope.
Yesterday was my 5th day in that school. it was sure a horrible plus fun plus challenging expeience for me. but, if i wish to be a teacher one day,this small things should be well handled. Kids,Teenagers.there's only one common in them..attention. i've been an attention-giver since i started teaching the students.
"Teacher,cheacher, Dylan take my eraser never ask permission"
"Mdm Zanah(like wat?!) i lost my pencil. never bring paper"
"Cher,must fold like this ah? is this correct"and start shoving the paper to me.
"Cher....my draw nice?must colour or not?can use colour pencils?" colour using colour pencils?like Duh.
"Cher....i finish already.i clever.know how to do.yay,yay!" umm..ok.
and so on..and so forth..
those type of dialogues have to be entertained when im with them. they just love the idea of people praising them,loving them. welll,who says we the 19s and the adults dont like?we do love the attention.but we don't show it though.maybe,bcause of our ego?or because of self respect? try to turn and cmpliment your fren or your family members abut how nice they look today. they'll love it.
the kids are definitely a bless despite of their naughtiness. shockingly,my teaching experience story has attracted a few to sign up for relief teaching. if u wish to do so,go to MOE website. don't wait for schools to call you.you have to call the schools personally. so seri,is there anything else that u want me to update about my relief teaching?

awaits for compliments.
"you're pretty."
"i know,tell me something i don't know"
Haha!

Bahibbak,ah. Wafarak,la.

2007-03-17T08:24:00.000+08:00

if guys are wondering what's my title, it means..
Bahibbak,ah---> i love you, yes.
Wafar-ak,la---> i leave you, no.

hehe.taken from a song,Akhasmak Ah by Nancy Ajram.
who else?my favourite singer.heee!
i will love and i wont leave you.
but if u dont love me and u'll leave me,what can i do?
=)

as i've said in my earlier entry,i will continue my last Sat outing,
after the wedding,i met Halimah and Farouk,my two never-lost secondary school mates.
met them for 'supper'.*eyes wink*
"Mah,if you're reading this, i want the pictures babe" dyingly..
i wont relate my outing here due to some confidentiality.hehe.
but overall,it was fun. looking forward for another one but not to that place again
but not a late one.
i dont wish another drama to take place.hehe. that place was and is obviously not 'my cup-of-tea,coffee or McFlurry' Umm..ok.

just because she has nice legs,she's already a model.hmpf!
i have nice face.(plus,plus) not nice bods(minus,minus)
but i do still qualify right?

does this look like a portrait?
(the cars spoiled everything)Hmpf!
i'm going for block leave next week.
WEEeeeEEee! =)

Waiting for "stepmother"

2007-03-14T08:52:00.000+08:00

*sigh* just send Aiz to the MRT station.
now at BSU room hearing to Azimah's 324 repeated time story about her "bayang-bayang"
hehe. funny lah that leachy woman.

weekends was great.and disheartening.
Saturday,10/03/07
a very memorable night for me.
went out with Farouk and Halimah.
before that, went to Aiz's sister's wedding at Pasir Ris with makcik Seri.
it was an important solemnisation ceremony called 'nikah'. since i'm not sure how the whole ceremony was being carried out,i decided to pop in on that day.
talked alot in the bus.varies from BSU topics to its gossips to life. thanks makcik for the enlightenment.

i know i'm pretty.comments not needed.hee!
will upload more photos in my next entry. im being deprived of my own lappie everyday.
hee.have to do some WDA data entry shit and etc.
just us.did i leave anyone behind? ohya, Jaclyn. i think u were MIAing..hee. will take more photos with u later
to be continued..

something for everyone

2007-02-23T03:18:00.000+08:00

not much words and thoughts will be poured out today.
i shall say this is entry which is rarely in the morning. hehe!

me and sister in bus 29 at Tampines

the happy faces of Aiz and Maz amidst of the smelly and recycled boxes.
the faces behind Quality Control Department.hehe! were supposed to check each of the 2220 souvenirs(berkat) that's supposed to be given to guests on Aiz's sister wedding.stayed there from 5 to 11pm.tiring baybeh.will be looking forward to it, the henna ceremony,of course. ;)

positions taken at Giordano 50th outlet. where else?
Nanyang Polytechnic, man..hee. cool service,cool staff,cool mirror,
cool reflections,cool US!!

location: Sports Hall Locker Room
not-so-qualified hair-doers: Seri,Annice,Aiz...victim?
Kukumalu XinYi. hehe!
the process of dyeing xinyi's hair before CNY

location: HarbourFront MRT Station. just came back from VivoCity with my
two lovely peeps in school.
this was taken a few months back and is only shown now.keke.

East --> towards makcik aiz. hehe. not sure whether she is aware of this picture.
Location: Yio Chu Kang Platform.
sitting anxiously, gritting teeth for aiz.
sitting comfortably, showing teeth,smiling for sha.
hee. waiting for Tamil Tiger Guy.
Haritha,a pleasant looking Sri Lankan guy.. makcik sure was anxious.
but now relaxed already. maklumlah,pertama kali jumpa u..

something for my loyal readers. bringing u my favourite position(latest) hee.

loveliest,dumbest,vain,metrosexual,'brengsek'
bestie of mine.

Location: Heeren Escalator
when? not sure. was months back,obviously. hope to cherish the times we had together.
ceh.like lover like that. hehe. "wei,if u want to go out with me,tell me earlier k.And DON'T terrorize your poor students.they're heavenly creatures.
just for u,me,us and everyone. =)

vibrations

2007-02-22T09:33:00.000+08:00

(happen to)was sitting beside 'kangkong' just now.
feel so pissed, like so hot. haha. so i decided to move next to LiYi.
eugh!
mum just called me and it vibrated.
i didnt pick up.budget mah.so,was vibrating along with the phone. hee.
well,anyway wishing all the Chinese, "Gong Xi,Gong Xi" hee..
Happy Lunar New Year to all my dear Chinese,chinese mixed and chinese non-mixed friends. hee! was wearing red today.wanting to uplift the atmosphere and the passion of redness. (umm,ok!)
went to Tampines on Monday and Tuesday with family for some family matters.
well,i dont wish to see anybody that i'm familiar with but i did. and this one is someone who i obviously don't anticipate. it was my sec 2 ex guy,my so-called first lover. *pukes* was at the bus interchange when i saw him alone. i did vowed to slap him hard when i saw him again. but i don't think that's a good idea. especially in public with not-so-many people and infront of mama somemore.so, i looked away.phew!
not enough, i met two lovely couple who looked sooo familiar. i'm not sure of the guy and the gal's name but i knew them a few months back from this car group. the girl was a police officer and she's now working in SIA? i dont know. she does has this type of stucked-up face. but she's very nice when i did approached her for the first time.tried to wave at them but the girlfriend didnt look at me.sad seh. hee.nvm.being occupied.

i am occupied now.with all the crazy jokes.hehe. (people,if you guys want to go out,please alert me a day before.atleast i can take leave.haha!)
=)

fiction

2007-02-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

Dont ask me why my title of this entry is 'fiction'.
maybe because i'm at the library? at the Central library to be exact.
all alone?ya,i am.haha. i'm just waiting for the clock to tick to 6.50pm where i can then head towards North Bridge Centre, the place where i just started working. today would be my 2nd day working as a part time telesurveyor cum telemarketeer for Starhub Cable Vision. wee..its quite tiring though.i mean not the job but the travelling from YCK to Bugis.(was headbanging in the train just now,luckily no 'suai ke') hee!
Maybe fiction books do exist because our lives are based on fiction stuffs?who knows? how i wish life,relationships and friendships is based on facts. and that means,ive got to take the lift up to don't-know-how-many-floor to the reference corner.haha. im all cuddled at one of this cushy cushiony cushion sofa.wee..and ppl keep on looking at me.i know i pretty.i look like a princess hor today.keke. well,like ive said,sometimes i do think that not everyone that you believe in are truly what u believe in.they seems to be having a 'plastic' outer covering hiding of their real identity to us.but,im grateful enough to say that the close friends i have dont have any 'plastic' with them.and i really hope u guys dont hor.lop,lop.hehe. oh wells,i dont know why i'm talking about this though. maybe the word for today is Fiction? i dont know.i just happen to sit infront of the sign. *giggles*

anybody want to go out with me this valentine? i want a 'squidward'.
watch Spongebob k.. (memories,*shaking head*)
=)

utmost thanks

2007-01-31T17:41:00.000+08:00

to all my not-so-nosy readers.
as u can see on the right of your screen,there's a tagboard.
only for TAGS. but it seems some intruders had their itchy,i-want-to-eat hands on my tagboard which makes it look like a chatroom server. eeee!! HEELLLooOOoooooo. u all think wat?
got share eh?
Heehehehehehe..Hahahaha..Hooohohohoh...Huuhuhuuhuh...Hihihihih.
(kidding guys)
actually i like.but can u all not be so brutal to my taggy.*sayang taggy* keke.
thanks guys for the tags.i truly appreciate. =)
was feeling rather satisfied. after watching my distance lover again at my lappie just now.sigh.
acting in Main Hoon Na(i'm here now). alamak. seeing his body movements.wow. u can put aside brad pitt.hehe. "shah rukh,why must u torment my heart by having such bods.." ceh.(zana feeling) haha.

i think im going to meet Robinson Crusoe. got plans to discover more islands. the map.with newly found islands being formed every night.hehe(aiz should know) keke.

listening to "Berdua Lebih Baik" (being with you is better) by Acha Septriasa
would it be? i dont know. still being single,mingle,jinggle. wooohooo.....

My Heart

2007-01-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

listening to Irwansyah and Acha Sepriasa singing My Heart soundtrack at YouTube.

"Bila kita mencintai yang lain,Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar?
Sebisa mungkin,tak akan pernah, sayang ku akan hilang.
If we love somebody,could we be this strong.
I will fight to win,our love will conquer all.
wouldn't risk my love, even just one night.
Our love will stay in my heart..."

love the lyrics of the song.touching.thanks for the recommendations.
i've think it through but i still can't bring myself to it. there's alot of unassurance and buts and the whys. but i've promised myself. to tell and confess the true feelings. eventhough its hard and unpredictable, i will do. cause, i dont want to regret later on not telling the person my true feelings and having to lose that person after that. just in Hindi movies..
but,i've been through that.
behind the laughters and smiles i've potrayed, is someone whom nobody knows,someone whom no one will understand,someone who is still willing to make minor sacrifices for her past relationship,someone who has started to fallen for someone.
i've been through alot.too much.period.
the least i would want is just someone who will make me happy genuinely. will it be you O Saviour..

ps: seri,aiz and others(VodkaYons,BSU,CSC peeps) i am truly genuine about the smiles and laughters whenever i'm with u guys. my utmost thanks. =)
vodkayons,please learn to adapt and adjust to each other's attitude. learn to compromise and be respectful and i hope things will turns out fine. mish u guys.*liu2,firah,lynn,becky,vani,shu,siew giok,jen* did i miss anyone?

feeling much,much better

2007-01-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

yeehaa..
just came back after a "long" jog with my sis. Haha.
Its been eons since I last wore that sports shoes. hehe. (rubbish lah zana)
I think we have ran about more than 2.4km. alahai. tiring. but you do feel good and fresh at the end of the day though. and thats why i'm motivated to finally update this entry of mine. oh wells, i do feel proud when the publicians(public people) sees me running. step sporty. hehe.

went to my uncle's place at Fajar yesterday since my granddad was not at home yesterday.
not knowing why.i just have that sudden urge to watch the soccer match between Malaysia Vs Singapore. (LiYi, i didnt know that watching soccer will be of so much fun) haha. How i truly wish i was at the stadium itself. i kept on cheering and praying for the best of our Singapore team. WooOOooo... i macam nak turun gi Kallang when S'pore scored.Thanks to this guy with the name of Ridhuan? ya,the one with the forehead bandaged.cool. it all happens in a split of second. i dont think he had that time to think about the ball.i'm pretty sure he wont even have the time to calculate the angles and to recall back all the trainings that they had gone through. u have the chance,go for it, Kick it! luckily the goalkeeper had not grab the ball fully. just about to clutch, WHAM!!
"Ridhuan kicked the ball in no time at all and GOAL!! for Singapore." foooyooo!
I'm proud of you guys. (gals,i have to admit this. they are quite cute though) hehe.
reached home about 12 plus? smiled and slept with my lappie on and hibernating..again. zanah!! *slams forehead*

by the fountain

2007-01-24T17:13:00.000+08:00

today went as per normal.
word for today = Peas..(peace!)

as the title suggests, me and makcik seri sat by the big fountain at school.
fountain that i dont really think should be addressed as one except for the Koi fishes swimming around. but anyway,it is still relaxing.
woosh,woosh,woosh

our peaceful conversation covers mostly about families,siblings,friends and significantly, relationships. it was unusually great to open up to people about your personal details.but well,only those u can trust. ;) we were discussing about our political issues in our class right up to all the way about the similarities of pea "puking" between seri and my sis.
both are Eldest Sister
both are Hot Tempered
both are Unpredictable
both are Attached(duh)
both can't 'tahan' their own youngest brother
both can't Take it if someone is rude to them
both will Cry after quarelling with their Bfs
and...
both don't EAT PEAS!!

double dush! hehe. funny lah u people..
should learn to appreciate the true essence and taste of PEAS.
MMmmmmm..

sometimes i feel like i am a student cum worker cum joker cum counsellor.
multi-profession.
i've been hearing lots of should-not-happen-in-a-relationship kinda of stuffs.
quite depressing. when all the advices i gave, would they heed to it?
would this people appreciate me then? would they then be there when i need someone to talk to?? just like the weather today.Confused. (dont know want to rain or not)
hee..
i can just hope and pray that my future relationship won't turn out to be like that.

the only thing that i would ask from u is just your
love,patience and understanding
ps: makcik Norai, come back lah.missing u already with your mmm "Stop It". haha!

Much Hope..

2007-01-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

weee.. Morningz people.
wont be writing alot cause its already 1am and i need to wake up at 6.30am for some dumb attachment that will drag for the next 9 weeks.
wish me luck people.
this pics are the one taken during "Awal Muharam"
and that is the New Year for us according to the Islamic Calendar
so,please don't mistook Slamat Hari Raya Puasa as New Year for us hor.
hee..just a bit of General Knowledge.

this was at Omar Salmah Mosque at Andrew Rd.

additional photos of me..ehm.ehm...

that pic me posing(hehe!)was after the Business Etiquette module where proper formal attire must be worn. Another pic was taken at Zara Vivo City with makcik Seri and makcik Aiz.
Keke.was fun to go out with them after a long while. just love those type of headwear.like want to step pilot or some snowy season lah. if only ppl wll not stare at me when i go out with those..
i wish.. =)